What's on your Monday Menu RNY'ers?

Monday- we meet again... challenge accepted!! I scored wicked deals on shoes for the family yesterday. Little things like that make me so thankful, since at one point I couldn't find shoes in stores to fit my feet. I feel 'normal' when I can find a pair of shoes on a cheap deal.

Qotd: what's a popular trend now that we'll look back on in 5 years and wonder, 'what were we thinking'??

The could shoulder top and the females with 1/2 shaved heads are my two pics. Two looks that I think are finite.

No weight yet-not up, 3.3 years out

M1: egg, cheese stick, ham

M2: ??

M3: chicken leg quarter

M4: probably leftover roast

eat smart!

Morning all! First day in my new job-6 month detail. I have to work in the office on Mondays now...boo hiss! But here I am at my desk. The coffee shop-bakery where I usually get a cup of coffee on the way in was still locked this morning. I could see them but the lights were off and the door was locked. Now I have to wait until the cafeteria opens to get coffee. Argh!

I have to tell you that I am feeling really fat lately. My weight is still okay--I've been 122 for a few days and I like to be under 120 ideally--definitely not in a bad spot. But when I look at my body sometimes, I feel huge! When I can be realistic, I can see more muscle definition from the weight work, especially in my arms and thighs, which is an amazing thing. But my mind and emotions are seeing my body as grossly fat. I imagine that it has to do with the stress in my life and that it's coming out as body image dismorphia. I am aware of it. I am talking about it but this is my current reality.

Menu:

B1: Isopure C&C protein shake/iced coffee

B2: HB eggs, turkey sausage patty

Snack: chomps, 5 almonds

Lunch: fish, veg

Snack: Buddig's turkey package, sm. apple

Dinner: chicken breast, salad

Exercise: an hour of weights and a kickboxing video

It can take years to adjust to your body. I'm sure the other stressors are making it worse too.

Good luck with your new assignment....and finding coffee sometime soon. I'm sorry the mental stuff i****ting you hard right now, especially given all you are dealing with. The logical part of your brain sounds like it's trying to keep you at least aware of all you've accomplished but we feel what we feel. I hope it eases off for you soon!

Janet,

I hope you have a great first day. I think all of us struggle from time to time with body issues, its hard! Something that helps me is pictures of how far I have come. Keep doing what your doing, you are amazing!

Thanks!

I know exactly what you mean about seeing yourself as fat. I can see in pictures that I am thin but whan I look at myself I see the old Karen. Logically I look at my tiny pants and know they fit but I still "feel" like that lonely obese woman. I'm almost 6 years out and still struggle here. I think part of it is I'm not able to have plastics--we're retired--so the skin is still there and a constant reminder of the old me. Most days I try though to use it as a happy reminder of where I came from.

Thanks Karen! It is really troubling because while I do still have some swelling from the PS on my ab, I can see a skinny waist, I see the clothes I put on and am amazed that they fit, but when I get out of the shower, I look at my body and I feel super fat. It's not based in reality obviously and I know that, but the thoughts and perceptions are still there.

I can relate, I am not sure that our minds ever catch up.

Thanks! It is strange because sometimes I am aware of the developing muscles in my arms and legs and other times all I see is the saggy skin that I have left and I feel terribly fat.