15years out
I'm sorry you're struggling with alcohol. I am staying away from alcohol, as a few years ago I dealt with drug addiction and know I have an addictive personality. I don't have very much advice besides with the person above me has already said. I am sending you good vibes.
Referral: June 2017
RNY with Dr. Neville in Ottawa: January 8th, 2018
on 4/2/18 12:45 pm, edited 4/2/18 6:38 am
I am four years out from RNY. I get sick of telling my story.
You are not alone. I was an alcoholic before surgery. I thought that the surgery would stop me from drinking. Well it did for a few months. I started back slowly then it was balls against the wall drinking.
I was drinking on a daily basis to black out I didn't want to feel.
Two years ago I decided I couldn't take this anymore. I wanted to die. I did want to.
I talked to a friend who goes to AA. I was not sold on the idea at first. I just knew I had to do something since my life was falling apart. I looked fine on the outside. Inside I was a mess.
I went to my first AA meeting and I hated it. I just didn't understand it all. They talk a lot about a higher power. I am still not sure I get it. But I know it is better to be sober than drunk and not enjoy life.
I have been two years sober. I may not agree with everything they say in AA. But my life is much better. My children want to be near me. I look healthy and feel happy. It was a long time coming. My smiles before were painted on.
I am going to add that I also see my therapist almost every week to get me through the month of March. This time of year takes it toll on my emotions.
I know drinking is not an option for me. I can not control drink. Trust me if I could I would. I have met a lot of nice people in my life in AA.
I also have been able to hold down a job for longer than three months. I also can hold my head high and not look at the floor.
Call AA and I am sure there is someone who can help you. It may seem so weird to go. Most of the people truly want to help us. When we help others we help ourselves.
When I look in the mirror at myself I can see I have self respect for me. Learning to love myself is one thing I work on daily.
Please take care of yourself. Sober living is so much better than drinking.
Edited today the reason I get sick of telling my story is I wish I was normal. But truthfully I don't know what normal is.
tThere is help out there trust me there is. Alcohol treatment centers are covered by some insurance companies. You don't have to do this alone.
I am 12 years out and sober two years. Yes, I also developed a problem with alcohol and no I hadn't had a problem prior to RNY 2006. Mine started small, progressed to daily and then my weight started going up. I was very lucky and prayed for my recovery, started walking in faith and haven't looked back. I do think this is a bigger problem that most don't talk about.
on 4/3/18 4:11 am
I could definitely feel a potential problem in the future coming and stopped having a glass of wine that was becoming 2 with dinner. I did not drink daily but when we went out (which we have cut back but was 2 to 3 times a week). I could tell I was liking the feeling it gave me too much. It hit me very hard quickly. Buzzed after a few sips. Probably drunk after one glass. I would not feel well later or sometimes next day, all from just 2 glasses of wine. I am happy I was at a point that I was able to cut it out. Not only the potential of addiction but from the sugar perspective with Reactive Hypoglycemia.
I was not told of transfer addiction when I had my surgery in 2008. I did not drink prior to my WLS.
Good luck to you. Get help if you need it.
on 4/3/18 4:34 am
My doctor did not seem to care at four months out I was drinking wine again.
also i didn't tell him the whole truth. He how was drinking after surgery I said wha****er he said no alcohol.
I went to another surgeon and he was fine with alcohol but he told me after one glass of wine we were legally drunk.
I was able to drink a box of wine plus go out too.
It's not worth the calories or your life.