Getting nervous now
Congratulations and breathe--clean hospital air instead of smoky wildfire air, if you can.
I am 56 hours post op and it's going well: It's funny how it goes from a struggle to not eat and drink to a struggle to make sure you're getting enough liquids. There will be a bit of discomfort in the first 24 hours, but you'll be surprised how everything gets easier as time goes on: the timer thing (set a timer for 15 minutes and drink and ounce of water in that time) seemed stupid. It makes sense. These people (medical staff and the people here) know what they're talking about: follow their directions, sip water, take the meds, walk even when you don't want to breathe through that crazy plastic thing to make the ball go....follow the plan. You'll feel better...
Thank you everyone for your kind words. I am doing what my doctor has ordered. It looks like that for my two week diet I'll be down about 10lbs total. Today is my last day of full liquids then it's nothing but clear for tomorrow. So I'm stocked up on broth, powerade zero, and water. Sadly I was really tired today and actually slept for most of it, big mistake because now I'm going to be up all night. Ah well, nerves will do that I suppose.
However as of today I'm sitting at 10lbs lost. Not quite sure how to feel about that one, happy or disappointed. I guess I'm just really hoping this surgery works. Since I was 8 years old I've been over weight. The day my tonsils were taken out was the day everything changed for me and I could not get to a decent weight. Before then, I was small and flexible an full of energy. It just feels like, after this surgery it was never the same.
Funny that I would remember that day as the day it all changed. But, it is very vivid in my mind. I think I'm just worried that I will not loose weight very well. That my Pcos will hold it all in again. I lost over 50 lbs once and it was due to the fact that I starved myself. I literally did nothing bu****er and no sugar drinks. I barely ate a thing and I lost weight. Of course, the moment I even ate up to 800 cals I gained all that weight back, even when it was healthy food.
I know why I gained all that weight back, I know my flawed thinking was wrong. I just don't want to be one of those rare people who only loose 5-7 lbs a month, because I know the majority of the weight loss will happen in the first 6 months to a year. I guess I'm just afraid I'll be a failure. I know I just need to have more faith in myself.
I want this more than I have wanted anything else, well except to remain NED from cancer :) This pretty much goes neck and neck with that. I have been NED for 1 year now and I want to keep it that way.
Here is to hoping for a better, healthier life!!
