DAY 1 - AMAW/CAMAW - post your menu here!

What is AMAW and CAMAW , I Had RNY gastric bypass in July 2010. My Dr's goal for me was142, I lost down to 127. But now weigh 188, I desperately need to lose not down to 127 I looked way to thin. I want to weigh about 135, but I just can't seem to get back on track. Once I get back on track I KNOW I can do it, I would appreciate any help and suggestion from anyone. I had to start my b/p medication back I have to take 2 everyday. My feet and back hurt just like before I had gastric bypass. I am so disappointed in my self. I also have depression and anxiety and my weight gain is not helping that either I know its my fault but please help give me some guidance.