What's on your Menu Today (Thursday) RNYers?

Wow, thank you for being brutally honest with us.  I sometimes feel like I obsess over what I can have vs. what I SHOULD have and like you I try and find something else to channel that energy to.  Hoping you have a much better day today.

I deeply believe it comes down to "there but for the grace of God go I."  If you aren't familiar, the phrase means, "I too, like someone seen to have suffered misfortune, might have suffered a similar fate, but for God's mercy." Ref is here

I keep this thought in mind pretty much everyday.  I try to resist taking pride in myself for my successes because I know I am no different nor better than those who fall on their faces.  I am but one misstep or twist of fate away from their 'homelessness' or any other failure.  We are all human and we can all fall. Once I take pride out of the equation I feel I am freer to forgive myself my mistakes and keep moving forward even when I take four steps backwards. There is a peace I find in letting go of feeling like all the outcomes of my life are squarely on my shoulders. I am like the daffodil...in the rain I grow, the drought I might wither. Each day I simply do the best I can.

~E

Yup, each day is a new journey... thanks for the reminder 

I had a conversation once with my surgeon about my fear of backsliding and he told me he's sure I'll never go back.  I told him not to be so sure, that every single day, I'm just a few bad decisions from falling down the black hole to failure.  Sometimes its exhausting to think that I have to work so hard just to maintain my new lifestyle.  But I agree, it's nice to be reminded every so often.

I so agree - I have the same fears.  Right now I'm drinking a double instant miso soup to keep myself from running downstairs to the cafe to get something to eat (which I do NOT need!).  I didn't think herbal tea would do it this time.  Hopefully all the sodium in this soup will make me feel bloated so I won't eat...

Wise words,E! Thanks.

One day at a time. Learn from the past day and take that knowledge into the next. There is always a brand new day around the corner...

I'm working on that today! Thanks for the reminder... I think that reading my friend's story last night about trying to get into a rehab, going on food stamps, etc... seeing her go into the rabbit hole with alcohol and drugs just hit home - as I was sitting there eating handfuls of tortilla chips (and I don't even LOVE tortilla chips out of a bag!), realizing my struggles with food are really no different.

I am an addict. Of carbs, instead of heroine... but still... an addict.

*Thump*

Me too. You are not alone.