Just little things I remember sometimes...

Just a few days ago, I took a photo of myself, which I do a lot of, that had a caption along the lines of "I've lost 80 lbs."  I was looking at my photos today, and I just got to thinking about this whole journey that started a little over four months ago with my first consult with my surgeon.  It's been a whirlwind, but a good one. 

I got to thinking about the day that I had RNY surgery, how there was a delay.  I tried to take a little nap in the pre-op room, to no avail.  DH tried to keep me occupied, but I just couldn't get my mind off of how I had waited so long for that day to finally arrive.

Husband and I have a strict rule that for medical procedures, we don't get emotional, we get things done.  I don't ask for a kiss or an, "I love you," I ask for an "I'll see you soon!"  I remember him saying that as they were wheeling me to the OR.  I didn't have any second thoughts, I was ready to be done, awake, walking, and sipping.

Flash forward down the hallway, into the OR, moving to the operating table, and I got emotional because my day had finally arrived.  I told the nurses, "Y'all, we need to hurry up and get me to sleep before I start to cry." I was just so happy.  The tears came when the anesthesiologist and surgeon arrived.  I remember them asking if I wanted to wait a minute or two, and I said, "No, please hurry and get me to sleep so I won't be blubbering all over your OR."  Surgeon asked if I was alright.  My answer was "I've just been waiting so long for this, and I'm happy.  These are happy tears." 

I never told my husband about this, or anyone else, for that matter.  I am still happy about my decision, even with small complications.  The changes in my life have been welcome!  I am so thankful to all of you who give good support and a good kick in the tail when it's needed.  

I'm emotional just writing this because I am so thankful to everyone that has been in my "support circle," including all of y'all.

Very heartwarming!  I feel the same way, I'm thrilled about my decision too. Even with my "small complications"... for I know these will be ironed out and I am already getting around SOOOO much easier!  Keep up the good work and I will too!

Thanks for sharing this! 

I had to get it off my chest. I hate holding back, and I knew that if anyone knew what it was like, it would be y'all!

Thank you for being so open. You're doing such a great job! Thank YOU!

Thank you for all of your encouragement throughout all of this! You are truly an inspiration!

I'm about to embark on my journey, and I feel like a mini you. I've waited for this so long and i really hope I don't cry because I seriously can get pretty emotional about these things. I cant wait to have it, then walk, sip, and get stronger. 

You're going to do great! It's an emotional time, especially for this of us who have waited so long!

Good luck on your journey. I can only hope yours is as great as mine! 

I certainly hope so too! Thank you for your kindness, and hopefully i'll join the losers bench soon! (February 15th!)