I am so thankful for my RNY

I struggle.  You guys know this.  Sometimes I'm terrified that my surgery will not work, or that sometimes I can just eat and eat and eat without stopping without any feeling of restriction.

Then days like today I am reminded that I do have a tool that works, that my pouch is tiny and that if I do the right thing and eat how I'm supposed to, it will work for me still.

I had a sandwich on 1/2 a flat out bread with 3 ounces of turkey, pickles and mayo.  I am sitting here in agony because even though I didn't fini**** all, I'm so full and in pain.  

Funny, I'm thankful for that discomfort because I know that my pouch is working like it should.  Never thought I'd be grateful to feel pain.

So grateful for you Deanna and your honesty... it is a struggle sometimes and not all unicorns and rainbows....

I am in my own struggle with hunger right now...what I like to call phantom hunger...because you eat and you are hungry... and you know it is not real...

I get scared sometimes when I feel the pain... and still want to finish the damn thing!! Stupid brain and 'clean plate club'...

It happened yesterday..ate through some pain.... So good for you for stopping...

I am terrified or regaining the weight... there is some healthy fear in there as well as unhealthy...

Good for you! and still working on me too

I had a day like this couple of days ago.  Just kept wanting to eat.  I know it is the head hunger.  Feel full but wanting to finish what I got out.  I am trying to track what exactly it is and I think it is the day after I have carbs.  Saturday after CAMAW Such a rewarding and scary road.

We are all still works in progress each and every day. Thanks for your honesty,Deanna. I too have days where I feel hungry all day even though I've eaten plenty of calories. And then other days I'm not hungry aT all and can't even eat my measured food. So much of this battle is in our heads. I can still hear my mom saying there are children in Africa who would love to have that food when she scolded me to clean my plate. Of course she also told me I was big boned!?

Sometimes I'm terrified that my surgery will not work

But it DID work!  You've lost 127 lbs!!  You've had phenomenal success with it!!  That being said, I know it's a daily struggle, and will be for the rest of our lives.  But we can do this!!

Thanks for your honesty Deanna, I look up to you guys and appreciate how you share the good, bad and the ugly. 

Thanks for sharing! I love that you and others are so open about life post op. Both selfishly, as it helps me think through the challenges to come, but I also think it's valuable to you. The accountability and support I think are key to long term success dealing with a chronic condition like obesity.

I'm glad your tummy sent you a reminder that it's doing its part!

I understand completely.  I was super hungry last night while making dinner so I ate a big ole dill pickle.  Then within a half hour I ate my 3 oz. of chicken and had that same overfull, pain feeling until after I went to bed.  I too sometimes have the same thoughts that my surgery is all of a sudden going to stop working. Like you went I have an episode like last night, I'm glad for the discomfort for the same reason as you. 

I am thankful for my RNY too.  So grateful. It is lots of work and it doesn't 'fix' everything but it makes my body feel so much better than it ever has before. It is kind of like that old bumper sticker saying, "A Bad Day Fishing is Better Than a Good Day at Work," .... A Bad Day with RNY is Better than a Good Day Without it.

~Elizabeth