What's on your menu today (Thursday) RNYers?

Screw the thought of "too young clothes."  Wear what you want and what looks good on you.  I am wearing a lot of short skirts and dresses.  My legs are good and I am going to show them off.  Don't care what anyone thinks.  

It's gloomy and 80 degrees today. I hope you and your hubby gets better DD2. I have managed to stay healthy during all this crazy massive weather changes we've been having. All my coworkers have been sick. I feel like wearing a mask to work haha!

This morning I jumped on the scale and it read 198.8. I did it 4 times and it had the same reading and then it said 199.6 the next 4 times and then it said 205.2 the next 4 tries!!! WTF. I HATE my scale!! It always does this to me!! I actually just got it working again after throwing it across the room for this same reason. I guess I need to get a new one because I don't know what to believe! 

QOTD: Ok, my brain is really screwed up. 10 years ago when I lost 125lbs I always saw myself bigger and had panic attacks about fitting on things. I eventually got over it. But this last time that I gained I never saw myself that big. I kept thinking I'm not that big...but I refused to weigh myself too. Denial maybe?? Its weird, what I see in the mirror never looks as big as in pictures. My brain is so confused lol. 

B - Coffee w/miralax, Unjury chicken soup protein

L - baked chicken thigh w/asparagus - and my bite of rice that I won't eat LOL

S - P3 with turkey, cheese and cashews

D - I really don't know yet. something meaty for sure

And I'm so excited for Daisymom!!! 

Get a new scale... and give it a name, and treat it like a pet... that way you won't throw it across the room again! 

Haha, maybe I should! I abuse the hell out of this one. I tell it I don't need your negativity!!!! Why oh why does it play games?!!

Morning gang! Had a pretty good night last night.  Not really any of our great tips that worked but instead I pouted until my Guy came home for the evening.  He had to get up super early to drive back into the city but I was really needing him to be there.  I have not been able to sleep and the crazy eating thing has been a mess. So last night he was home, I stayed on plan without a problem, and slept through the night like a baby.  No getting up to eat.  Now... tonight he will be gone again so it will be interesting to see how that goes.  Wish me luck!

QOTD: I write on here lots about this mind-body weirdness. It is a real struggle.  As I thought about the question today though I realized that it is much better now than it was.  Now I am feeling like this is my body and I am getting to feel more comfortable in it. I still look at my pants every morning and think "Nope, never going to fit" but I don't feel panicky or fret...I just get dressed and all is well.  The anxiety part of it has passed and I haven't been having the waking-up-MO-again dreams. I feel my confidence has been healing and I am feeling kinda awesome some days about how I look. Thank you for getting me to notice the progress! My mind is catching up to my body finally. 

Menu: B: Homemade Greek yogurt with coco-coffee granola and blueberries; L: Chicken Crack left overs; D: Bean-less chili S: 100 calorie popcorn

Accountability: Weighed in at 122.8 again.  Holding steady and happy with that.  No binge last night and drank more water than usual. Good stuff. Just need to see if it keeps going.

Have a great day folks,

~E

I'm glad to hear it's all coming in line for you! You do look great... I can attest to that!

I told you if he was home you'd be good  Now... for the rest of this time that he's going to be home... any chance you could face-time? Or maybe you just need to carrying his picture around with you and force yourself to look at it IF you do hit a binge? I dunno, I'm just throwing **** out there now! LOL But I'm SUPER glad he came home last night and you had a good night of eating AND rest! 

I am hoping that the good night and the sleep last night will help me feel re-set for tonight. I will talk with him on the phone a bunch and I am going to make my kid take an evening walk with me. Tomorrow evening he comes home for the weekend so that will get me through till Monday.  Then next week I think the doctor is going up on the dose of the med so this ride will go around the tracks again. Wheee!

~E

It sounds like you are having separation anxiety. Maybe that is causing the binging? I have that too. When my husband goes out of town the first thing I think about is some good ol comfort food I want to eat while he's gone. I can't sleep well either!

I totally am having separation anxiety. The weird part is that in the past I get stressed and miss him and that is pretty much it.  We have been together for almost a decade. Been apart before.  Normally I don't behave anything close to this way.

This time I think the new med has unleashed my inner anxieties and decreased my inhibitions. The confused/dazed feeling is giving me a rough go when it comes to modulating my responses.  I am basically going full throttle id with no ego or super ego to rein it in. Emotions are running a muck. He is done with training at the end of Jan...I can't hardly wait!

~E

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