What's on your menu today (Wednesday) RNYers?

Whether to weigh daily or not is a mindset...and you have to know yours. For me it is the only way to go, but I only record once a week... Have to resist the urge to let it take over mentally. There will be fluctuations....always.

Morning everyone from snowy Portland. We are in the middle of quite the snowstorm that is unheard of in my area.  We even had thundersnow.  I got 12 inches at my house last night, with another 3 forecasted before this is over.  It is beautiful, and thankfully no ice like we had over the weekend.  I feel your pain, Daisy.  Be careful out there. I took a fall on the ice a couple of weeks ago, and it was no fun ( as well as embarrassing since I did it in front of an audience). I am working from home today, so I am just going to enjoy all of this winter splendor. 

QOTD:  i have one friend who is a food pusher, and I always call her on it when she gets going.  She really doesn't realize she is doing it, and she does it with everyone.  Not just me.  She is having RNY in a week, so that behavior will stop.  Otherwise, everyone is pretty respectful. We celebrate birthdays at work with cake and other goodies.  For my birthday this year, my staff brought in veggies and a meat and cheese platter. Awwwwww!  It was really sweet and thoughtful. 

Time since surgery:  2 years

B:  Egg Beaters, mozzarella and bacon omelette 

S: egg miffin

L: Leftover beef pho

S: Protein Hot Chocolate, deli ham

D: rib eye

have a great day everyone, and stay warm!

OK - a first. I just got back from the dentist's office.  I had to fill out new health form since it's been over three years since I did the last one.  I actually rounded my weight up for the first time ever in my life (I weighed 148 this morning - but I put 150 on the form since it's a nice, round number).  Before, I always put my weight at about 50 lbs *less* than my actual weight.  I can't believe I did that - and felt fine about it!

YES! I was filling out new hire paperwork yesterday and recorded my weight and actually didn't feel a bit bad about it!

That's funny rounding down by 50lbs... I don't know if I've done 50...but a solid 20 has happened. I never get on the scale at the Doctor's office...even now. I just tell them my eight.

ehhhhh - they don't have a scale there.  Whether I'd put my real weight of 373 or my 50-lbs-lower-fake-weight of 323 (although I probably put 320 to make it an even number), they wouldn't have questioned it.  323 would still have sounded like an enormous person!

Ok gang....things were really not good last night for me. I did a bunch of binge-like eating that felt very out of control.  I got out of bed at 12:30 AM again to eat.  It is really turning into a problem. I looked around to see if I could find a counselor who specializes in food addiction near me and have found no one. It looks like I need to batten down my own hatches and get this figured out.  You guys are my support group so I am open to whatever shin kicking you have to offer.  

I know the right things to do...drink water, dense protein, keep temptation foods out of the house, do something active to get my mind off of it. The trouble is that I don't feel in control of my behavior. I know I am responsible but it is feeling really disconnected from myself as I make these choices.  I haven't felt like this since before surgery and I really think it might be related to the confusion and memory issues this new medication is causing. Since I am feeling a bit dazed and off the food addiction is jumping to the front of the line. Again...open to suggestions.

Things I am trying currently are listed above.  Add to that I decided to track in MFP EVERYTHING I eat.  I haven't done that ever.  I have used MFP as a planner but never both to go back and edit or add things that I eat.  Last night at 1 AM I tracked everything.  Turned out I was at 1100 calories, 50 protein, and 81 carbs. Honestly not as bad as I expected but it did feel helpful to see those numbers.  I feel that the sense of lacking control is what is really getting me.

QOTD: I think I am the food pusher now to other people. I love watching people eat things I don't eat anymore. My kiddos say it is creepy. LOL I do get the occasional "Can you eat that?" and "just try one" but I always respond like Pam and say, "I can but I choose not to" or "I can eat whatever I want I just try to make good choices."

Menu: Homemade Greek yogurt with grapes and homemade low carb coco-coffee granola; L: Salami and mozzarella knots; D: Chicken Crack made with Greek yogurt/cream cheese substitute; S: Lord help me... 

Accountability: 122.8 this morning. Still holding but worried about regain coming soon. Smoking quit is stalled right now as I am over whelmed with dealing with the side effects of the new heart meds and the eating addiction issues.

Let's have a great day everyone!

~E

Can you possibly talk to your Doctor about maybe trying another medication? I really hate that you are feeling like this. Especially when it's caused by something like that. 

Unfortunately this is the third and newest generation of the medication I have to take for my heart.  The only up side is that people usually adjust and the side effects lessen in the first six weeks or so.  The bad news is I am still on the very lowest dose and he is ramping it up over the next 2 months to the dose I need.  Heart is too important so I am going to have to find a way to adjust or manage this without changing the med. :(

~E

Yes, your heart is most important. Well, the good news is really good. It might take a while to adjust while he increases the dosage but keep in mind that you can and will overcome it! You need someone to smack you when you start raiding the kitchen  Don't loose hope!