What's on your Menu today (PHOTO FRIDAY) RNYers?

Great pics!!

Holly Springs is  near Raleigh, isn't it?  Lived there back in the 70s.   Five-to-seven inches of snow is crazy talk there - I remember getting even an inch would pretty much close the city down!  I don't think we ever got 5-7!

Yup!  You'd probably be amazed at how much it's grown...it's a booming town now.  We're new transplants, moved here from Johnston County.  Hubby just got home so we are all safe and warm and that's what I was most concerned with....now we just ride out whatever may come 

when we lived there, Raleigh's population was around 150,000.  It's triple that now.  Even when I went back the last time about 20 years ago, I hardly recognized the place.  There were new streets, new highways, re-routed traffic.  I got incredibly lost even near my old neighborhood.  It's probably even worse now!!

You guys, I'm struggling hard.  I'm failing over and over, and my head just isn't in the right place.  I keep pushing, but I keep purposely making bad choices.  I hit the vending machine at work yesterday.  I put my money in and got a Nutty Bar, but guess what happened.  No joke, two of them fell when I paid for one.  I ATE BOTH OF THEM.

Then I went to the store last night with the intention of getting a rotisserie chicken for me and my little one.  They didn't have any available, they were sold out, so what did I buy?  I 40 count bag of Totino's pizza rolls.  My intention was to have a serving.  I ATE THE WHOLE ******G BAG!  40 pizza rolls.  My hubby was gone, my oldest was gone and my little one had fallen asleep and was napping.  I was a wreck.  If anyone had seen me, it would have looked like some weird scene from a movie where you see some sick person sitting in a corner shoveling food obsessively into her mouth.  

I am sick.  I have a problem.  Sometimes it's easy to control, and other times I just go off the rails.  I need help.  I feel like I'm drowning.

Luckily for me my hubby will be home tonight so I'll have that accountability back.  My scale is staying steady, but if I continue on this path it won't for long.  40 pizza rolls.  40 pizza rolls.

Happy Friday?

Hmm... Today and/or tomorrow is a new day? Hugs! We're here for you too, so don't forget about us!

I'm so sorry you are struggling.  This is one of my biggest fears once I get further out.  Can't do it now or I would be very ill.  But it sounds just like me before WLS.  I rarely overate in front of people, but let me alone and I could devour a tremendous amount of lousy food.  Are you working with a therapist/counselor.  Perhaps that would help.  Food demons are so stinkin powerful.

Deanna I can feel your pain. Thats the way i feel with sweets. If i buy it, I'll eat the whole thing. Doesn't matter if I feel sick, I'll continue it.

I'm so sorry to hear you are struggling Deanna. Cyber hugs to you. From outside looking in,it looks like you have  loads of stress in your life right now:new job which even if you love it is far more stress than Joanne'S was,hubby gone and you were feeling alone and overwhelmed. Eating was the way you coped. But you and all of us know that doesn't really help only makes us feel worse. You need to work with a counselor or someone to find new ways to cope. Since you need the money of the good job you have to find a way to acknowledge and release that stress that doesn't involve food or you really will be a mess. When I am stressed I clean or exercise or read a book or knit but or drink lots of coffee but you need to find what works for you. Hoping Elizabeth puts her counselor hat on and helps you too but know that we are here for you and you can do this one choice at a time. Leave yesterday behind you and focus on what  you can change--today's good choices.

Elizabeth put on her "Team Not Hitting Her Butt With Either Hand" hat and joined her in the corner...but in the counselor world we call that "validating" and "normalizing" so...sure...yeah...I'm a big ole help. LOL