is there anyone out there like me??

This is so NOT a cookie cutter, one size fits all procedure!! I hope you're feeling better :)

I am sorry you are going through this.  Let's get real.  For starters, you can't have chocolate.

We are all here because food was a security blanket or we over ate to fulfill something in ourselves for whatever unhealthy reason.  

That said, we all spent a lot of money, invested a ton of time, fought with our insurance company's and spent 100's of hours learning about the process.

I can understand why someone 3 years out could go astray and have to refocus.  I can't understand a newbie like me.

I'm 2 months out and I am going to succeed.  You can too.  First we have to all know that we are addicted to overeating and surgery doesn't take away the emotional issues.  I have no appetite to speak of if I really focus.  I keep envisioning my golf ball stomach and don't want to try to make it grow.

Follow the rules.  it's that simple.  Get support, talk to your doctor and talk to the dietician.

Good Luck!  I'm rooting for you! 

I know I shouldn't have had the chocolate. I was desperate to have some sort of "feeling" as I have so far had none of the restriction bypass is supposed to give. I didn't have to put myself out there and broadcast what I'd done either. I needed to find someone who understands, someone who has the same unchanged appetite and No food intolerances.

I'm sorry you are struggling like this. I hope with time it changes for you. I can only imagine how difficult it must be to be hungry so soon after you've eaten. I understand why you would want to find something to prove to yourself that you've had surgery. Hang in there and let's hope you begin to feel some restriction soon. 

I'm sorry, but I don't understand why you would do that? Why did you spend all that money and go through surgery to just test and see if you would dump? Why would you put yourself through that? Carbs are bad, sugar is bad, protein is good... that should be your mantra now. Look at pics of you at your worst and ask if that's what you really want in your life...

I understand the cravings, believe me I do, I just went through my own personal hell cooking for my entire family for Thanksgiving and Christmas but Ill be damned if all that money I spent and all that work I did to go through major surgery is going to go askance for one or two fleeting bites.

I like the way I look now. I don't have to walk around mirrors. I actually don't mind having my picture taken. Its worth it, just don't give in!!

Im sorry if you think Im not being supportive. Sometimes I think a good shake is better than a pat on the back.

YOU CAN DO THIS! You just have to want it bad enough!

Ceci

I put myself out there in total desperation. No one can scold me anymore than I have already scolded myself. I am looking for someone who understands the frustration I feel.

I have to admit I'm very disturbed by the people admonishing Pat for posting that she's struggling and ate something she was aware she shouldn't have eaten. In my opinion, the fact that she came here to admit it and was searching for others with the same issue means she is working towards her struggles with food. I can't imagine she needs to be told that she shouldn't have done that or that people don't understand how she could have done it. We all have or will have struggles ahead of us. Being able to admit it and ask for support or look for others with the same struggles is a huge step in the right direction. I applaud Pat for working on this and for looking for support and trying to seek others in her position. 

Let me explain the best way I can. I work in the medical field and we deal with this type of thing all the time. To me, overeating/eating the wrong thing, is just as bad as using heroin or crack. It IS an addiction. If someone posted that they used crack just to see how it affected them after they just spent thousands in rehab fees would MOST people really just answer, "gosh I'm sorry you slipped up"?

I am here for people to keep me honest, if they slap me on the hand for doing something wrong, then it wasn't meant out of malice, it was meant to snap me back to reality. People coddling me is what helped keep me FAT. I don't need coddling, I need to hear the truth.

I do apologize if the OP thinks this was meant to hurt her, it certainly wasn't. Just do me a favor and don't jump off a roof to see if it will hurt, ok?

Ceci

1st of all, let me say I knew I would get "scolded" for admitting in public what I had eaten. And anybody who denies testing the waters is not being honest. I have been a Registered Nurse for 37 years, that didn't stop me from becoming MO in my 40's. Food addicts have to continue "using", but control the amount. My post was to try to find some successful coping techniques from some in my situation. I have posted about this before and got the same scolding, but again I reached out hoping someone would understand, not get sarcasm "jump off a roof"

I'll try to let this go but it's got me riled.......

You are the one that doesn't get what she was saying. Using your drug analogy;  if a drug addict admitted they screwed up and they were looking for someone else that had the same issues for suggestions and support, how is saying  "I don't understand how you could do this with all the money and therapy, etc" going to help them not repeat this action? If she didn't realize it was a poor choice I'd say to have at it but that was not her point. Her point was she doesn't feel as though she's had surgery cause she's always hungry so she wanted some kind of confirmation and made a bad choice. She's looking for others in a similar situation. 

I'm lucky, I'm not hungry yet and I know the surgery has caused restriction of my food intake.  I am also aware that it won't always be this way for me and I'll have to make difficult choices. I want help and support from those who have been successful and if I'm doing something wrong I want it pointed out and I won't expect to be coddled. However, if I make a poor choice and ask for support I see no need for anyone to rub it in. There is no helpfulness in that.