What's On Your Monday Menu, RNYers?

LOL, it seems like I can do skim milk (which may or may not be a good thing, since I'm back to drinking Starbucks) but yogurt KILLS me.  I'm so sad about the yogurt too, since the best flavors are out this time of year.  I had to dump a bunch of caramel apple pie and pumpkin pie yogurt since it expired before I felt up to trying to eat it.

I am sorry but I just could not choose between the 2, I love them both!

Breakfast 

Cottage Cheese Fat Free
Roasted Turkey, 2 oz
Lunch
Home Made Pea Soup
Ham, 1 oz
Dinner
Home Made Pea Soup
Snacks
Bariatric Fusion - Cappuccino , 1 package
Deluxe Mixed Nuts, 1.5 oz

Totals cal 648 carbs 41 prot. 67

Better late than never?  Good afternoon friends.

My weekend was pretty good.  Went out Friday evening and met up with some folks for Cards Against Humanity. Afterward the Guy agreed to drive so I could eat a pancake at our favorite late night dinner spot.  SIDE NOTE: Yes, I had to have a designated driver if I eat carbs because they kick my butt.  Our friends find this hilarious! Me: You up to drive? Guy: You are thinking pancakes aren't you?  Me: Hellz yes.

Saturday he worked during the day and I felt crappy.  At first I thought it was a carb hangover but I ran a slight fever and when he got home he declared me to have a cold.  This triggered the "I am taking care of you" mode in him and he kept me in bed and brought me coffee and yogurts and stuff while we watched an entire half season of Fear The Walking Dead.  Good times. Laundry was eventually folded my friends... ;)

Sunday woke up feeling better.  No more cold.  Got to play in my standing D&D game.  We killed lots of ghouls and zombies and had fun. The hosts made grilled chicken wings and hamburgers.  They both had WLS (he had a sleeve, she had RNY) so it is always fun to hang out there because the 'snacks' are all WLS friendly.

Today...back to work-a-day life.  No holiday for me.

Emotional Well Being Update: Weird frustration/concern for the week... I am starting to think I have some form of eating disorder that is new and different.  Wondering if any of you ever feel something like this.  Now that I am trying to maintain and not lose weight I am trying to make sure to get in at least 800 calories... pushing for 1000 if/when I can. It is not happening. I keep losing (down to 130) and I feel my body needs more energy and calories...but every time I eat anything that pushes me above the routine I've been in during the last year I get freaked out.  I have started to randomly go weigh myself when I am home several times a day.  I feel guilty and miserable about myself, negative self talk about being "fat" and a "failure" start screaming around my head. I look at the food that I am supposed to have and have planned for and just feel like I can't put that in my body because if i do I will "be fat again." I know it seems kind of out there but it feels a whole bunch like the anorexia that I have worked with in some of my clients. Is that even possible? I know my body image is all sorts of distorted and I work on changing my thoughts around that but this food/hate thing...this feels really weird and I am worried it will develop into a real problem. Anyone got any experience with this?

QOTD: Pumpkin for this month and next. Apple the other 10 months of the year. (Hahaha AV! You can't fence me in.  I defy your pick one rules. LOL)

Menu: Soooo boring. I swear I could cut and paste this post.  Need to get more creative.

B: Light & Fit Vanilla Greek yogurt w/ 1 cup grapes; L: Salami (12 slices) and mozzarella knots (2); D: Beanless chili (1 cup); Snack: Chobani Simply "100" Crunch Lemon

Totals: Cal 762, Protein 71; Carb 50; Fat 30

I'm not in maintenance yet but I see this as a start of an issue just reading it. Eating enough calories not to lose weight should not send you into panic mode or any kind of anxiety. And weight several times a day is the start of something.

I can't say that when I'm there I won't experience the same as I've been so strict about logging my food. I would maybe see if there is a counselor you can talk to that specializes...

Hugs- we are here for you. sorry I couldn't be more help.

You are always helpful just by listening!  I am going to sort of sit with it for a week or so and see if it just yet another growing pain of the process of this journey. As a counselor it sucks to find a counselor...trust me.  We are like beta fish...two in one tank and we eat each other. I do have one I trust and have gone to before but not sure this is in her scope of practice. We shall see right?

~E

Not crazy at all.   Last year I went through something similar and my surgeon made me make an appt with the practice's psych (even though he typically doesn't see post ops).  He wanted me to do CBT, but I found a therapist who deals with eating disorders and have been working on it since then.  It's slow going, and I still have issues.  Lately I'm convinced I'm going to wake up fat.  Literally, go to bed at 126 lbs and wake up fat.  I wake up in the middle of the night and feel for my collar bones and hip bones just to reassure myself.  It's a huge struggle for me.  I wish I had some suggestions . . . I don't other than to say you're not alone.

I am grateful for the not alone.  That is helpful for now. 

I totally get you on the fear I will wake up fat! I do that check for collar bones thing. It is weird too because sometimes I hate the thin parts of my body that I can see (ie hands and face) but if the scale says it is up a few ounces even I am shaking nervous that the turning back has started and I am going to balloon like the blueberry girl in Willy Wonka.

Hoping we both find balance with this. Least we got each other, right?

~E

Reading this made me want to give you a hug!

And people claim we took the easy way out! NOT...

Elizabeth, hang in there, did you read the article on the main page today? I actually shared it on FB... I thought it was excellent. We all have to learn to work with our minds, apparently it's an important puzzle piece...

I'm learning from you guys... so much! Thank you for being so honest with us!

I can relate. I have had to have my hubby hide the scale from me a few times. I attend a local support group once a month and many have discussed very similar issues. I think we all wish they could so surgery on our brains at the time they do WLS.  Some days are easier for me than others. 

Hi menu gang,

Everyday is a off day for me(working).

I ate terrible this weekend and the scale showed it this morning. I went to a baby shower yesterday, they really didnt have anything WLS friendly. I did good until it was dessert time. They had cookies instead of cake.

QOTD I like both but have to pick one then pumpkin would be it.

B egg whites ham and cheese omelet and string cheese

L cottage cheese, baby carrots, and yellow pepper

D hamburger and acorn squash

S greek yogurt, apple and mr cheese o's cheddar flavor

Have a good day.