Tell me this is not a mistake

For me it was worth it.  I did have a wonderful fast loss my first year.  Then about 2 yrs in I got sloppy - started drinking wine & snacking.  I snacked & drank my way back to 318 lbs.

then a year and eight months ago I just decided enough is enough and went back to the basics.  I am now 172.4 lbs and losing.  I am not physically hungry except about 30-40 minutes before a regular meal time.  A small amount fills me very nicely and I really enjoy the taste of my food.  I have not used protein bars or shakes, just a balanced diet plan recommended by the nutritionist.

The hunger I get and fight is head hunger.  If I gave into emotional eating to sooth myself, I would zip right back to 300 plus pounds.  My biggest enemy has been my old ways of coping.  I try to step back and question the reason I want to have snacks and then find something to do to distract myself until the urge passes.  This is the hardest battle and it has gotten easier.  Recording every bite I eat or drink in My Fitness Pal helps for me as well as journaling and reading this forum.  Also, reading books such as Success Habits of Successful Weight Loss Surgery Patients helps.  Again I do not regret the surgery without it I would not be able to fight constant physical hunger and emotional hunger.  Before surgery, I was never really full, now 4 oz of chicken, 1/2 cup of green beans and a couple of baby carrots and I'm stuffed.  The tool works and I am 9 years out from the surgery.

I had rny 11/3/14 and have had issues of I non-healing ulcers had to have a revision taking out the ulcers on 8/15. I had major complications and peritonitis this time around and thought I would be back this Monday but I have spent almost 2 weeks in the hosp and is due to infection during surgery. I have often dealt with surgery remorse but I don't want to be fat again and starve and work out 10+ hours a week. This surgery for ulcers was a wake up call that I am not sure I would do it again but thankful for the things it did give me. Most of my last year I had severe vit deficiency due to the ulcers from bypass. 

I'm only about 18 months out so I can't tell you long term things at all. But so far it's worth it for me.

You will still be thinking about food all the time. That's just how we're hard wired IMO. Anyone who has surgery most likely has issues with food. I know I did and do. There is no reason for me to have been 377 pounds besides having major issues with food!

RNY is a tool and I've learned to use it successfully so far and it's my job to continue to use it effectively for the rest of my life and for me part of that is thinking about food. If I don't think about it I may mindlessly eat again and I cannot afford to do that.

However, it's not even close to the same as before. Now I can sit in the same room while other people are eating French fries and I'm eating chicken and not feel like I'm missing out. I'm thinking I lost 210 pounds and I'm so much healthier than I was before and that French fry is not worth going backwards. I'm thinking of the size 8 clothes I own and the size 26 clothes I got rid of. I swear it's a totally different life and I really don't want the old life back.'

Also I think you should be able to go back to work in the timeframe if you don't do physical work. If you do that's too soon IMO.