Pictures and shame

I used to hide from pics all the time. But then I realized if I kept doing that my kids wouldn't have any pics of their mom. I stopped swimming for a few yeargs because I hated how I look in a bathing suit. But swimming is one of my favourite things and I wanted to take my kids so I went bathing suit shopping. I haven't had my surgery yet And I may not know what I'm talking about but I would encourage you to love the girl that went out and had a wonderful time with her friends. Hopefully you can look at those pics one day and just remember the wonderful time you had with great friends. 

Congratulations onyour our weight loss! 38 lbs is an amazing start. 

I am so glad I had the courage to post this.  Normally I don't tell anyone what I'm feeling.  All of you who have responded have been so kind and wonderful.  Thank you from the bottom of my heart.  I will head your great advise.

I hated having my picture taken before.  As a result I only have 2 fat pictures.  One was taken the night before my first surgery 

And the other was taken a month before my revision 

And that is pretty much it.  It also means there are practically no pictures of me and my kids when I was obese.

Of course now I wish I had more pictures but I always hid when the cameras came out.

One day you will be glad you have pictures to see how far you have come.   And to be grateful you are no longer there.

Some people take pictures monthly while they are losing weight.  That is something I also wish I had done.  It isn't easy seeing ourselves at our worse, or what we feel is our worst but it is a visual reminder of where we have been and perhaps to help prevent us from going back there.

This is me the summer before I had my RNY.  It was at my nephew's grad party and I remember being so uncomfortable and hot and when my aunt posted it on FB I wanted to die.  LOL  I kind of love this picture now, though.  That's the old Kristen and I never want to forget where I was and how far I've come.

thank you.  I am feeling better about it and yes, my picture will be a good reminder for me too.

This pic is from LAST SUMMER! I am mortified...but it is what it is. That's how I looked, not who I was. I've lost about 77 pounds since then, and feel a ton better, but I'm glad I have this to look at. I'm not going back.

This doesn't even look like you!  You are killing it! 

I'm waiting to have my RNY in Ontario, and a few weeks ago I brought my old veteran girl to a dog show. She won a lot that weekend and so there were lots of pictures of me on facebook that I cringed at. 

Then I noticed something else in the pictures. Each and every picture of me and my girl that people took from outside the ring I saw us both smiling. 

She doesn't care that I'm fat, and I don't care that she's old and we just had a great time together. So along with her rosettes, I framed this picture. :) You only live once. 

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