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My surgery was 3 days ago and I've no regrets so far. I'm excited to move toward my goal. I will be on liquids for a few more days then move to pureed foods from day 8-21. I am looking at this time as a time of healing toward that better me. I would advise to only look at this as the phase that will build the stepping stones to the healed and better you. We've got this
Hang in there Darlin'! Your feelings are normal and I promise it will get better and you will soon be giving this advice to someone else.
RNY 3/21/2016 Highest Weight 232, Goal Weight 135, Current Weight 126
March-20.9, April-15.7, May-11.6, June-13.9, July-7.9, August-7.4, September-7.4, October-6.0, November-5.7, December-5.5
I did not regret my decision. When I woke up on on Day 2 (Still in the hosp, but had a few brain cells functioning) - I checked in with myself about how I felt and did I have buyer's remorse. This is what is thought. It was like a trip to Paris. You pay for the tickets and book the hotel months in advance. You want to go to Paris. You pack a week in advance. You get on the airplane going to Paris. You get a taxi to the hotel the night before. But when you wake up in a strange room, you go to the window, throw open the curtain and see the Eiffel Tower - and BINGO it hits you for the first time - I AM IN PARIS - HURRAY!! I AM IN PARIS - I HAD WLS! - I had no buyer's remorse.
After I got to my goal weight - I had a thought that maybe if I tried harder I could have done it on my own. Then I found some research that showed that even a year after people who lost their weight with conventional dieting, their hunger hormones were still elevated. That was me - even if I lost 120 pounds for the third time in my life, I would not have been able to keep it off. That was the end of my second guessing myself.
It does not seem to me that you are regretting having the surgery - you seem to regret that your relationship with food has changed. Is it possible that you think that food was your best friend? Many of us did - but the reality is that food, who we thought was our best friend, really never was and is not now. This dose of reality may cause grieving (and growth).
The first 3 months are the most difficult because your food choices are limited to allow your stomach to heal as well as to promote weight loss. After the first 3 months, you are only concerned about promoting weight loss, so you have some flexibility, but still you will not be eating like before. You might need to talk to a psych specialist in this area if you feel this way in a few months.
Yo are going through alot of change now. IMHO, you need to wait for a year to see if this was really a good decision or not.
Sharon