Deep-rooted as in how we were made from the start?  Living on a farm makes me believe it is from the start with animals helping prove it.  There are cows that make a dead run for treats and some that sniff and walk away.  There are chickens that do nothing but wait for a crumb of anything and other chickens that could care less.  The difference being humans have resources to obtain more power to suppress food urges by choice. One of those resources being WLS. Onward we go.

I'm with you. I am struggling with head hunger and had a hard time at a party last night. Will I ever have a normal relationship with food? Probably not because I don't know what normal is. I'm still such a newbie and have hope that it'll get easier eventually.

Plus.. What you saw I experiance with my skinny frinds - skinny people really dont eat a lot...and they are mindful about their portions... Having RNY - gave me a chance to be like that - small pouch, with dumping... So not only I need to chose how much I can eat ..but I need to be careful what I eat.. 

I don't know...I've never been skinny, but when I hear a bunch of women saying stuff like that I feel like they are probably full of it. LOL! I mean, maybe the burgers really were huge, I don't know. But it seems like women, especially thin women, do an awful lot of "oh, that's just way more than I can eat", "Oh, I ate half of that and felt like a pig", etc. I had a thin and gorgeous friend in college that always, always used to eat before going to a party so that she could be all bird-like in front of people.Like Scarlet O'Hara. heh.  In reality, she had an awesome metabolism and could eat like a truck driver (annoying!ha!), but she didn't want to eat like that in front of people. I think thin women often have their own thin issues, just different ones. 

You arent alone. Some well meaning worker at subway gave me CHIPS and TWO COOKIES the other day cuz I was looking "too skinny again" and he was worried that "my husband wasnt feeding me" (Note: I feed my husband..the menus are all my conconcitions).

These are trigger foods for me. I wanted to eat them so bad I was physically shaking with ADRENILE [sic]. I had to walk the halls and find someone to give them to. If they would have entered my office, it would have been all over.

I cant even be in the room with full sugar coke...

Skinny,

I must say you are my personal Hero. I'm smaller than I have been in 23 years, but in my mind I am still the little chubby one. Good for you for giving away the chips and cookies. I must admit, I'm not that strong.

Bless you,

Robin

I worry about backsliding. When I fall off the wagon, i land in the mud, laugh, roll around in it, and sometimes forget to get back on the wagon!!!

I'm so in your corner. I may be thinner now than I have ever been in 25 years, but I will always be the bigger girl in the crowd. For me, it never leaves my mind no matter how much I maintain or work out.

Good to know there are other people like me here in OH. Thanks for your post. You really hit the nail on the head for me.

Robin

I'm so with you. I do the same thing with eating beforehand or sometimes bring things with me, but I wouldn't have in that situation because I would have stuck out more.

I don't agree that all skinny people work at it constantly - I think Hala said this - I know plenty who literally don't. My brother being one. My best friend being another. They were born without needing to work at it at all, my brother takes weight gainer and can't gain anything ever. My best friend can eat anything and be a size zero. I think most people do have to work though to be relatively skinny though.

I think about my fat girl mentality all the time. Every lunch, every get together, every time I eat in front of other people. But I decide I just don't care. I don't have a lot of get togethers though so I don't have as much temptation as I think some others do!

Good for you for sticking with your plan.

And fat girl mentality unite!