How did you?
I had eaten a high carb meal. I was so disgusted with myself. I stood in the bathroom, stared at myself in the mirror and began to give myself the talk. Who is the adult? Do i want to live? I admitted that I did not really want to give up my food addiction. Then I cried and cried. The next morning I got up, pulled out my food plan from my nutritionist and followed it. I had my surgery 7 weeks ago. Surgery was on my guts. I had to do mental surgery on my mind. This is not a diet. This is how I eat to live.
Good luck. This is a difficult time, admittedly. I was in counseling as well. I pulled on every resource I could find.
HW 330
SW 308 3/14/16
CW 278 5/9/16
on 5/9/16 6:42 pm
My question to you is why do you want to have WLS. What are your motivating thoughts? I was just plain tired of dragging the weight around. I wanted to feel better and be able to walk and move with more ease. I have always wanted to go and walk in the Rockies. In my 60's that goal seemed to be slipping away. So I starting imagining every day that I was carrying a 50 lb bag of hog chow on my back like a giant back pack. Why was I dragging that huge pack around..why indeed. I printed out a picture of a bag of hog chow. Little by little that bag started to lose weight, it got lighter and lighter.I looked at that picture every night for months. I started to think more about me than the people I have spent my entire adult life caring for. Somewhere in life I was entitled to care about me. That thought just grew as clothes got baggy so I needed more and I wanted something different, something less like a tent or old lady clothes. Yes I could have taken things in and I did just a few but I started to feel worth so much more as a person. Perhaps you might call it empowered. I did not rush. I planned on 15-18mths to get in better shape. I am hoping to take that trip west in Sept of this year so I still have a way to go. Yesterday I walked 10 miles for the first time in my adult life.
I bought smaller plates for myself and tried to eat less. I didn't focus on a "diet". Like you I was dieted out. Gradually it got easier and a pound here and there disappeared and the idea of eating differently became easier, more like a life change not a diet.
You can do this. There are so many here that will offer ideas and be here as you take this walk towards better health and a happier healthier life.
I've gone from 321 to 178 since October. Everyone is different and has different needs but, for me, I credit three things:
1) Myfitnesspal: posting every morsel of food I eat is reaaly important to me. When Im flirting with the 1000 calorie mark at 10pm, it keeps me honest.
2) Reading this site every day. I very rarely post but just reading the site keeps the process on the front burner.
3) "Not today": A friend told me that the best thing to say to a young kid who's thinking about trying drugs, is "just dont do it today". I've applied that to my eating habits. Every single day I want to buy a veggie eggwhite flatbread sandwich when I go into Dunkin Donuts to get my coffee. Every day I tell myself, "just not today.....maybe I'll mess up and cave in tomorrow. But today I wont have one". It gets easier day to day....sometimes I just need to buy myself time.
Good luck with your journey. You can do this.
I took one thing out of my diet at a time. The first thing to go was the diet pop. I did exactly what my surgeon told me. I was at the end of my rope. RNY surgery was my last hope. As it turned out, 12 years later I am still thin and thankful everyday for it. Good luck. You can do this. One step at a time. One day at a time.
