What's on Your Wednesday Menu, RNYers?

I'm mad at me right now. First day back after 3 days off, planned for a crazy day. I didn't close the top to My protein Shake properly And it spilled out into my lunch bag, ruining it. I got called into two meetings, forgot my water bottle at my office and am so thirsty I'm ready to swallow my own tongue. 

Uggggg!!!!!

Will I ever be posting before everyone else takes their afternoon siestas?

QOTD:  I don't know.  My husband (a lovely soul with a deep hole from a hard childhood) is so "everything just so" that I kind of let things go on purpose.  I can't keep up with his constant need for things "just so," and the kids can't either.  So I consciously counteract that by not getting too concerned about stuff.  Even stuff that bothers me, I tell myself to let it go.  Except in our bathroom, and I am very careful to place things just so in our bathroom, because that is especially a big deal to him.  I am sure I have some OCD stuff I do, but not sure what it is.  I do REALLY like my hot drinks throughout the day.  And, like Sarafer, I do have things I do in a certain order, like groups of behaviors I link together.  Like, when I get dressed I make my bed and do a couple of other things, and I have trouble leaving some of those undone even when I am running late or in a hurry. 

When I was a kid, about 11, I used to twirl around at the bottom of the stairs in our house before going up them.  Every time.  I felt totally compelled to twirl around, and if I didn't, I knew things would fall apart. 

Feeling really whiny today.  Whine whine.  Whine. I try to make a practice of being positive--there is always something to complain about, and always something to smile about, so why not focus on the smile?  An honest smile, acknowledging the troubles, but seeking to smile anyway.  Today I feel tired of all that.  Just confessing.  I will put on my shiny again as soon as I submit this post. 

Today's behavioral goals:

Having trouble self-committing. But here are the goals to aim for.  Now, WWYS (What Would Yoda Say?  He would say there is no try, only do, but I am tired of Yoda today.  He is not not God.  And maybe God would say trying is better than giving up.  Humph.) 

--sit down to eat anything I eat, as a way to be more mindful and avoid grazing.  As I have said before, I think grazing is my most distressing habit, that I most need to overcome. 

--also for mindfulness, record everything in MFP

--remember that the surgery was a gift--a tool, not magic--and I can honor that gift by being mindful of my eating every day, every hour, every minute. 

Today's menu:

B:  Egg, chopped ham, Coastal cheddar (yum yum)

L:  Homemade chili (no beans) with cabbage (this will also be yum yum, leftovers from yesterday, and I make awesome chili)

D:  Some kind of soup--probably chicken curry spinach soup, thickened with a little plain yogurt--husband bought bread bowls and put them in the freezer, and keeps asking for soup for them.  I will make it really chicken-y and strain off most of the broth for my serving.

S: Fage yogurt with unsweetened apricot puree.  I don't think I will need another snack option today.  Also, trying to stay away from nuts lately--I had been eating too many of them. 

I have so many OCD issues, I do take meds so I can at least calm them enough to sleep at night. The one that drives my family the most insane right now is one of my two year olds toys. It has the little color pieces that pop from piano keys around in different color columns. I cannot handle it when the colors are mixed up. I will bang on the keys and pop things around forever before letting it sit there not matching.

Time since surgery:  3 Months

B:  Double Scoop Unjury Shake

S:  Tuna Fish and a few crackers

L:  Chicken, cucumbers and tomatoes with a little sauce

D:  Steak Fajita Fillings

S: Unjury Shake

TOTALS:  Cals:  749  Protein:  106  Carbs:  21  Fat:  25

Time since surgery:  almost 11 months

B:  protein coffee

S:  quest bar

L:  Bacon

D: tuna casserole

TOTALS:  Cals:  626  Protein:  73  Carbs:  33  Fat: 19

QOTD: Toothpaste should be squeezed from the bottom to the top as it slowly empties. I have this weird thing where if im not driving I stare out my car window and do this weird jaw clench thing based on if we're passing grass or pavement, ive done this since i was a kid no idea why. If I clean I cant half ass it, I have to scrub everything and get it as close to perfect as I can. im sure theres more things but i cant think of them atm :P