What's the most embarrassing thing you've done for/with food?

Man, the struggle is real. I would make jokes about it, because if it was funny, and I said it first, it wasn't pathetic. 

I hid food in the closet, for "holidays" but always needed to get more because I ate it. I would eat until I was physically sick, then lay down and nap. I did the drive thru "we" so many times. 

I watch my sister now, eat all the stuff we used to eat together, and feel bad, because we weren't fooling anyone.

I'm coming out of my Class III lurker status because I needed this today.  

I went through times when I was a traveling speech pathologist where I'd hit almost every exit and go through a drive-thru.  I had a system.  I'd order, get the new food, and toss the old food trash in the can on my way out.  Next exit I'd do the same thing again at a different place.  In between every appointment, I'd hit another one, then stop at the gas station by my house to get rid of the last of the trash before going home to my husband.  When I got home I'd make dinner and eat with him like everything was normal.  

I would get the Russell Stover holiday chocolates 2/$1 and get maybe six of them every time I stopped in a new town, and eat those too.  I did the little birthday cakes or the individual slices (that come with a fork even) and eat them in the parking lot.  

I wasn't fooling anyone, not even really me.  I knew I was out of control but I felt powerless to stop the spiral.  

Now, since my surgery 18 months ago, I still struggle with going off the rails.  I find myself sabotaging my own efforts, making myself feel physically horrible with my food choices at times...  The difference now is my awareness, my openness, and my feelings about these behaviors.  I know that they're signs of my eating disorder and my seriously messed up relationship with food, and I'm working to correct them and move on rather than letting them spiral out of control and wreck my efforts and my success.  

Thank you ALL for posting.  We're in this together and, while it's not a happy thing to think that anyone else has gone through these crazy mind games, it's nice to know we're not alone too.

Oh I went through drive throughs and got 2 full UPSIZED meals DAILY! AND, I'd go through Jack in the box and get a meal because I liked their curly fries, then hit up BK because I liked their burgers better. and you can't JUST buy a burger, so I'd go ahead and get the large sized meal there, too. Then one final stop at sonic for my blast with extra candy for dessert. I'd fini**** ALL in one sitting, albeit a slow and painful process. 

Taco Bell was a one-stop shop, but I would put down a taco salad, THREE orders of nachos and cheese, and whatever burrito or new item they had. all. at. once. INSANE! Now I can't even eat a whole taco! LOL

Just thinking back to the massive pile of "food" makes me disgusted and sick. I don't miss that at all! 

I have also done all of these things...

I remember when I was 14 I was babysitting. When the kids went to bed I went into the kitchen to get a snack, (always my favorite part). I found a box of snack cakes that were unopened, the Mom had told me they were the only thing I could not eat, so I tried really hard not to eat them for hours. I finally caved and had one. I couldn't stop and finished eating all six by the end of the night.

I was so embarrassed that I ripped up the wrappers and cardboard box they were in and put the pieces into my pockets, so there would be no evidence in her garbage can.

The next morning the lady called and asked me where the cakes were because they were for her kids lunches for the week. I lied and said I had no idea even though I knew that she knew I had eaten them. So humiliating.

There was another time in my 20s when I was in the hospital for a month with a high risk pregnancy with my twins. A few days before I gave birth I had my husband pull up in front of emergency and "break me out", still wearing my hospital gown and take me to KFC. I ate an entire bucket of chicken myself and was back in my bed 15 minutes later.

The power of food addiction is an incredible thing.

I used to get drive through fast food on my way home from work, eat it on the drive home, THEN eat dinner with the family! 

I used to order a crap load of food from fast food places and then order two drinks so they thought it was for two people.  Fooled 'em every time.

If I was going to a family dinner I would pig out before I went and then eat such a small amount' ha! I also hid candy , from who ??!! 

Wow, I can relate to so much in this thread. I've done a lot of these things.

The drive-thru, all the time. I had a schedule to make sure I wasn't hitting up the same drive thru too often. I'd rotate between all the major chains, only switching it up if I was getting lunch instead of dinner or whatever. I didn't want to run into the same employees too often (like they cared).

Always hiding food. Any time I had an extra 5 minutes, I was running through the drive-thru and eating in my car. Even if my next meal was as soon as I got home.

ALWAYS do anything you can do to make it seem like the food is for more than one person. Get two drinks or two value meals. Add on a kids meal. Upsize one combo and not the other - for some reason, I thought this really made it seem like the food was for two people!

Always hide the trash. Preferable hide it in your car until you can throw out in a random parking lot trash can so no one would see it.

Mine is/was this weird obsession at parties where I tried to be invisible while going through the buffet line or past the food table for the third or fourth time. I was fully aware that I was not hungry but I just had this compulsion to eat.

I'm retiring from my job next week. I've been with the Department for 23 years. My co-workers wanted to give me this retirement party and started talking about all the food they were going to bring. Everyone was very excited and I just sat there. I must have looked pretty annoyed because one of them - the woman I call "The Oblivious", said, "You should be happy, all your favorite people and all your favorite food!" I just shook my head and said. "First of all, I'm retiring because I cannot stand the hypocrisy any more and I cannot eat any of the foods you all are talking about. I told you before I do not want a party. I want to clean out my desk on the last day and leave. I'm going to be very busy finishing things up and I do not think you want me to leave work undone just because you guys want to blow off half a day for a party I don't want."

One fellow, who is actually a friend, then piped up and said "See, I told you guys."

And that was the end of it. Next Friday is my last day and I cannot tell you how much I am looking forward to walking away.

So, I've changed. Before surgery, I would have just let them plan their party, I would have attended and eaten way more than I should, and left angry. Today, I'm actually cool with this. I am making decisions for myself about what is good for me and what is not.

Nearly dying due to complications from my surgery really got my priorities in order and while I may miss half my income since I'm retiring "early", I will not miss the stress and the BS. I'm looking forward to getting outside, gardening, fishing, painting and doing a little traveling with my husband, spending time with my grand daughter and with my adult children.