What's the most embarrassing thing you've done for/with food?

Get the crap out of your house . Seriously toss it !!! Your baking days are over. We have an addiction. Would an alcoholic have booze in the house if he really wanted to quit ? You need behavioral therapy, I know it's hard. I am 13 years post op and can not have crap in my house. If I need to bring food someplace I bring cut up vrggies. 

I like this thread a lot.  Its funny how we've all had similar experiences.  When I would order at the drive thru, I'd always say "can WE get...." Even though I was alone and about to eat two double quarter pounders on the drive home.  Then I'd stop at a gas station to throw away the evidence.

I was a food hider, too.  I used to keep a bag in my closet filled with cookies and crackers and chips...  I can clearly remember feeling so calm and peaceful when the bag was full and how panicky I would get when my stockpile was getting low.  And when I would throw the empty containers away and nobody noticed I would have this feeling of relief, like I was getting away with something.  I'm sad for my former self.   

And add me to the "fast food order for two" crowd.

I did the drive thru thing sometimes. It was always on weekends when my ex had the kids and I was alone. ( This was before I even met my 2nd husband. ) I'd hit the KFC drive thru, get a huge bucket o' chicken and all the trimmings, and just eat my way through that bucket along with raw cookie dough for dessert over a weekend. It was almost always KFC. ( I used to get so pissed because we didn't have Popeye's. ) I used to lie to myself by thinking this was a treat and I deserved it.

Sometimes, I'd get two or three tubes of cookie dough and just eat that on a weekend. I'd also do that with cake mixes. I'd buy one or two, and just mix them with water or milk...and just help myself to a big ol' bowl of raw cake batter.

I used to bake coffeecakes, and eat the whole thing over the course of a day.

I'd fix an entire box of pasta, add lots of butter and cheese...and go to town.

All this only happened when I was alone, of course. I did this for the better part of 20 years.

Wow, I was messed up.

I just had a thought about food addiction.  You know, at least for me, it was like my mind was finding a way to comfort me when I needed it.  Something that felt so good, was enjoyable.  I didn't learn great coping skills growing up.  I never really learned good conflict resolution, because I was the child of an abusive parent.  I learned to keep my head down and try to fly under the radar as much as possible. That also shows in my food hiding.  Maybe my food addiction was a cry for help and I tried to hide it?  

All I know right now is I'm tired of living that way, I'm so over it.  I need to be transparent, my addiction needs to come out of the shadows and into the light.  It's nasty and uncomfortable for me and for those around me, but it's something that I have to do or I will fall right back into the cycle that got me to a BMI of 51.5.  I NEED to talk about it and think about it.  

Thanks guys for sharing, it really helps!

This was exactly what I needed today!  Yesterday I had to spend the day with a very needy, emotionally abusive sibling.  I promised my parents when they went out of town that I would take care of her if she needed anything.  She needed a tooth pulled.  After riding with her for an hour, watching her pop Morphine, and run down my bariatric surgery, I was at wits end.  She is 52, the oldest, and has always been coddled by my parents.  They expect all of us younger sisters to "take care of her".  After the dentist, I refused to let her drive.  I took the keys and drove the hour home.  I was so thankful for the gauze they shoved her mouth full of, so I didn't have to hear her talk.  As soon as I dropped her off, I started looking for somewhere to get food!  I thought, "Nope, that is what got you into this mess in the first place"  Instead of getting Arby's or Burger King, I got a sugar free, decaf cup of coffee with skim milk.  I am guessing there are a lot of of stress eaters.  I am so thankful for you all.  You are helping me to be strong.

Congrats on the victory!  I think dealing with difficult people can really push us to want to be bad.  Good on your for recognizing it and pushing past it.  I struggle every day, and while I really wish that every single one of you didn't have to struggle, it does make me feel better to know I'm not alone.

I know most doctors tell you not to chew gum after surgery, and I don't want to give anyone any bad advice, so take this as you will.  I have started keeping one of those cup holder packs of sugar free gum in my car.  Most day's you'll see me chomping away like a maniac while driving.  That is when I did a lot of my hidden food snacking.  

My family is very dysfunctional and was a big trigger for binge eating for me. Working with a therapist has helped but it is still a struggle,especially in times of stress. Glad to know I am not alone. And Deanne,you are right. It is sad!

My most embarrassing moment(s) came when I would actually get an attitude with my husband when he wouldn't go to McDonald's and get me a large fry at midnight. I would give the silent treatment if he said he was too tired to go to Sonic and get me a milkshake. So not only was I getting someone to do the dirty work for me, I would actually go into b*tch mode if he tried to refuse.

Aww... that is just terrible. Glad I'm over that. I was so mean about not getting my way with food.

I have been there.  Getting mad at my husband because he wouldn't go out and get a snack.  I, of course, was too lazy to get my ass up and go myself.