What's On Your Tuesday Menu, RNYers?

Seriously!  I NEED to figure out a way to not do the "why bother" thing. 

Pity Party...table for one. 

I DID track all the **** I shouldn't have eaten....and will be 100% on plan the rest of the day ...well I will try anyway.

Oh girl, I am SOOOOO with you! I totally get in that mode sometimes and I don't know how to get out of the loop. I ate 5 bites of home fries at breakfast - well the day is already ruined why not just eat that free piece of pie the nice waitress gave me? Why not stop at Wawa for that Chex Mis Muddy Buddy stuff you've been seeing and avoiding? Why not have another beer? 

Yes, exactly!  I am having a ****ty week, plus add in hormones...and this is just a BAD combo!  I feel like I just make excuses.  But sometimes I feel so out of control.

I NEED to break this horrible cycle I am in.  Get back to being on plan 95% of the time.  It's just so hard!

I swear to all that is Holy, if anyone says that this surgery is the easy way I may kill someone.

Well...killing someone might be a good way to get back in control of your diet - I feel like prison food is probably gross.

But everyone is right - we've got this. Stop. Take a deeps breath and reset. Let's take a few minutes to remember why having this surgery was important.

For my own sanity, here are my top 3 reasons for my RNY: I wanted to get rid of my CPAP (and the sleep apenea of course), I want to be healthy enough to have children, I wanted to feel more confident about myself and my body.

I would probably have more time to work out if I went to prison as well.  Maybe I will just do something to put me in for a few years....not life...hhmmm    BWHAHAH

I NEED to be around and healthy for my kids, I don't know what I would do without MY parents and I am 33, I don't want my kids to be without me.  I thought that losing weight would solve all my body issues, this isn't the case, but I am feeling a little more confident.  I was a relatively "healthy" obese person, no high blood pressure, no high cholestoral, no diabetes.  BUT I felt like a ticking time bomb...WHEN would things start going south??!?!!

I was a healthy obese person too - no sleep apnea, no high cholesterol, no diabetes.  But right around your age (33), I tore my meniscus in my knee.  Then in my other knee.  I had two (minor) surgeries to fix them, which worked.  But I felt like everyday I got up, my knees were screaming, and I knew it was only a matter of time before it all went south.  So you did the right thing in getting surgery now, and not when you were completely incapacitated.

I have hard days and "fuck it, why not" days, and what I have found works for ME (and only me, not saying you need to do this) but say I have 3 servings of cool ranch Doritios which is most definitely NOT on plan, well I make sure for dinner I have chicken sausage (low carb, high protein).  Whereas before surgery the whole day would be shot to **** and I would have like a bagel for breakfast, pad thai noodles for lunch and pizza for dinner, now, my choices are MOSTLY good.  Not always, by any means.  I am a very imperfect person.  But as long as my good choices outweigh my bad, and I am cognizant of my choices and LOG them, I feel more in control of my menu.

I feel your pain - maintenance is wayyyy harder for me than losing was!  I think of it as a day at a time, and I make sure to work out 4-5 days a week to help combat those imperfect snacks!

Good luck girl.  I am not going to hand pat and say don't worry - in fact, I think it's good you are worried...it's great to recognize your bad behaviors and try to remedy them now, before you are battling a 50 lb regain!  I think you seem self-aware enough to find the coping mechanisms and strategies that work for you!  Sending hugs from DC!

Most of the time when I have a bad day or bad weigh or mess up, I just pick myself back up and get back on track.

I am doing that today, I royally messed up, but will not let the rest of my day be a **** show!

I'll bet prison food is gross. But, I'm willing to bet they have portion control down to a fine art. Plus, Big Martha is always going to take your ice cream.

Hey we are all in this boat. We are not cured, just working on keeping our heads above water and living. Let it go and move on.

"They" really need to work on figuring out how to cure our brains of obesity as well!  COME ON its 2016, get on it science!