STRUGGLING...hard....

I'm one week away from surgery! Also one week into my two week pre op diet and I'm miserable!!! A friend who had the RNY a year ago told me the first 3 days of preop was the most difficult. I have to say this is not the case for me, I'm seven days in and I could cry because I can't stop day dreaming about food! I want everything from a healthy salad to a slice of pizza! I did well this far, lost the required 25 lbs, stayed right on the plan with the liquid diet, but now I literally have to lock myself in a room so I don't go have that "one last favorite meal before I can never have it again". I feel like I'm going insane. I never touched a drug or cigarette in my life but if I had to guess what detox would feel like, this is it. I'm cranky and whiney. I'm embarrassed that food is this appealing to me. My mom and I are attending a BINGO today and I'm trying to focus on the fun of that (never been to one) but I just keep thinking... It's going to be hard to avoid all the good food for sale! Trying to stay on track... But really struggling this weekend...

Focus on your new body.  I spent time every day going looking at the Before and After pictures on this site.  There was on picture of a person who looked very much like me, even wearing a blouse that I owned. 

I was so excited to see her after picture.  It showed me what was possible for me.  I also walked through the mall window shopping at clothes and swimsuits in small sizes.  There are so many exciting things in your future.  Your health and appearance will make your life so much better. Think about the exciting future ahead of you.

The preoperative diet is definitely the hardest part. You still have a normal sized stomach and are trying to convince it it has enough food when for years it's had all it wanted. Just keep yourself focused on whats ahead. I was much like you and didn't really realize the hold food had on me until the preoperative diet. It helped me see that making smart food and lifestyle choices each and every day would be crucial to keeping the weight off. And it is hard sometimes,especially when I am feeling stressed. But I look and feel so much better now that the struggle is totally worth it. I went from a high of 272 at 5 feet 6.5 inches to my current weight of 120 to 123 and from a tight size 24 to a size 0 or 1 and have been here about three years. I am doing things now that I could never have imagined as that tired,miserable before me. The best decision I ever made was to have my RNY. I truly feel like a new person and you will too! You can do this and we are here cheering you on!

Amazing support, I so badly need! Thank you :-) Considering you are three years out and have done an amazing job. Do you find you can eat whatever you want? Are these feelings of "I'll never have a slice of pizza again in my life" true?

I do occasionally eat one slice of thin crust pizza now as long as it has lots of toppings. Most foods you will be able to eat small amounts again. The only things I can't eat are sweets. I am one of the 30 percent of RNYERS who dump and sugar will cause me to be miserable. I am really thankful though because they were my downfall before surgery and where most of my excess weight came from. If I know I will be sick,it makes it very easy to stay away even they still SMELL delicious!

I am where you are right now. I am on day five. I hoped the hunger would pass but it isn't. However, it is only a week and a few days before the surgery that will change my life for the better. 

I have to keep on telling myself that. 

You can do this. We both can. 

Yep, I thought of things that would make me just want to not give up... Like that skinny you know what that acts like their you know what doesnt stink? Yea her, I thought, I want to not be who she laughs at lol I want to be thin but have my smarts ;-)

Drink something;  hot, cold, it doesn't matter.  You may be dehydrated and not know it.  Your body only knows how to alert you with a signal of "hunger" that you recognize because you had ignored "thirst" for so long.

Try it!

I watched  NON-STOP You-Tube videos of FatDoctor and My600LbLife, not sure of the exact title when I was on the pre-surgery liquid diet.  I allowed myself 1 whole box of suger-free popsicles daily.  When I wanted to eat, I chewed a popsicle.  When I was bored, I got up and walked around the house and up/down the stairs a couple of times.   You can do this.

I struggled after surgery before restriction kicked in.  I had a bad eating episode and my sister called my daughter and an emergency session was put in play.  My support people on OH, were honest, and many just couldn't believe how someone could be so bad.  I was--one time (well, really bad).

My daughter reminded me to pull from an inner strength.  I had/have trouble doing this for weight loss, but I can set my mind and do great things when it comes to sports or work. She reminded me of a time when I worked full time and took 27 credit hours at the same time.  I did this because I wanted a promotion and a person I trained, told me she was going to get the job, because she had a degree.  Well, guess what, I got a degree and did get the promotion.

So, find an incident in your life where you were really strong, and use that to help strengthen your motivation in an area where you are weak (weight losss).

Be strong

Great advice, thank you!! ?