I finally admit... I need help

What Laura said is true. You really need to love yourself. And know you deserve to be healthy and happy. Think why you had the surgery. Make a list of good things you have done. So many see the bad and then we go into a beat ourselves up mode.

Measuring is important. Take it one meal at a time. Don't give up if you go off plan on one meal. So many will say oh tomorrow I will get back on track. We really need to do it before we put the next thing we eat in our mouths.

Like everyone has said that we need support. This is my main support. I have a great family but they have no idea what it is like to struggle with weight. Everyone knows here  what it is like.

Make sure you come back here. I know somethings we don't always want to hear what we hear.. Most everyone here does care. 

Take care of yourself

I never did any shakes but when you first have surgery and you are on full liquids, protein shakes will help you heal. You are healed. Please don't think of all this as a diet. It's not, it's a whole new way of life. Correct me if I am wrong and I often am ,but is your list consist of things to eat? Mindset dear lady. Eat to live, another favorite from here I like is, being hungry is not an emergency . I really think you down deep know how to do this. Be accountable. Write down every thing you eat. A nice lady here,starts her day with , what is on your menu today . Excellent read.

what does a typical days food consist of? 

Wish I wouldn't have wasted my time. You have been on this site for 4 years. Pizza and lasagna ring a bell. You know what to do and no one can do it for you 

Damnit,  no one quoted the original message.  

When you fall down 7 times, get up 8.  Don't give up and don't let the turkeys get you down!

I  new here (in the past month) I didn't get to read your post as its been edited out. But the title, "I finally admit I need help". Well, being in another recovery program we call that a bottom. Can be high bottom or low bottom or rock bottom. Doesn't matter It's a starting point. Lots of great info here. Doesn't matter if you have tried a hundred times like Heavens2betsy said fall dwn 7 get up 8. I saw a meme the other day of a babYouy falling down while trying to learn to walk. The baby doesn't say. Eff this - it's too hard I think I will just give up. No! They keep getting up. I know people who struggle with day 1 of sobriety over and over.  

you have asked for help  there is lots of help here on this site! Take the steps you need to move forward  abstaining from white flour, rice, bread, carbs and being protein forward is what I have been taking from the threads of the most successful weight losers 

I scour the menu posts for ideas  

all advice that has been written  do not feel embarrassed and please don't be shamed into not taking those steps you need to take  

i am sorry you felt hurt enough to remove your post  

I have my surgery in 11 days  join me on my journey  I am going to do what it takes to be successful   If for some reason a few years out I stumble and fall  I want to know that I can recover.  So set that example for me ! Show me what it's like to get back on track. You can do it  !

You are not wasting my time.  I choose to be on here and who to respond to. 

Since you deleted your original message, you did waste everyone's time.

Obesity can be the result of an addiction.  I am a food addict.  I think you probably are, too.  

I sincerely hope that one day you decide to work on your addiction and save your life.  Until then.

Why delete your original post and your comments within the thread?  We've seen it all here and the one thing that consistently irritates is the poster who starts and thread and then goes back and deletes.  I can't imagine how that would be of help to you (the OP) but it certainly is not of any help to others who may be in a similar position and gotten some encouragement or new ideas from your thread. 

You do realize that your post history is still out there for all to see?  Every single post since you've been on OH is right there in black and white.  Are you going to go back and delete each of those as well?

It's what addicts do.  They refuse to take responsibility for their addictions.