What's On Your Thursday Menu, RNYers?

i just ordered the pumpkin pie, yummy cant wait

I'm sorry it's not Friday AV, but it is  my friday :)!

I have a sleep number mattress and I do not like it, I did for the first month or two, but really it's just an expensive air mattress.   I so need a new one, but it's not in the cards just yet, and I certainly will not get another sleep number bed.  I'm thinking possibly one of those Icomfort ones like my daughter just bought or one with the gel.  This time I will be a little more thorough in my research.  Last time we were in a hurry to get a new mattress. 

Time since surgery:  almost 10 mos.

B:  Muscle Milk 100

Morning Snack:  1/2 Fiber one english muffin w/1 tbsp Teddie Organic unsalted peanut butter

L:  More leftover chili

D:  Probably leftover pork from last night, have an appt. at 6:00 and won't be home until after 7:00.

S:  ?  Yasso?  Babybel? 

Have a great weekend everyone.

I didn't manage to get on here yesterday as I had a cardiologist appointment. He came in and the first words out of his mouth were yes you're still skinny! Last year he told me I was skinny like his wife now! My blood work both triglycerides and cholesterol were perfect with no meds and I have permission when RA meds get resolved and my body is no longer screaming in pain to try to come off my one lowestate dose BP pill. He says you know you are skinny 2 hen you a Stent placed and the dappled tech can actually see it. Most people have enough body fat that all they see are flow patterns. He said mine can be seen perfectly! I had a Stent placed in 5he artery going to my left kidney three years ago because of congenital narrowing. I don't have to go back for 2 years as I am no longer a heart attack waiting to happen. Frustrated now with rheumatologist office as I have had no update on meds from my RA. I am going to call and become a nasty person today because I can't stand this pain. They called a med in 2 days ago that was an NSAID which I can't take and never responded to my message about that at all yesterday. No more nice lady! Don't really feel like exercise but I must so will do 3.2 miles at the park with Lily ,another mile on the treadmill and 30 minutes on the bike. Here's the food B 1/2 c steel cut oats with protein and peanut butter added L 31/2 oz deli chicken and 1/2 c Brussels sprouts D 31/2 oz fish and 1/2 c green beans S Greek yogurt. Have a great day full of good choices everyone!

I like that....yes you are still skinny.

Happy to hear you are no longer a heart attack risk!

I'm so sorry about your RA.  I can appreciate what you are going through as my daughter was diagnoised with RA 8+ years ago.  Her Rheumatologist tried her on several different med, which did nothing for her debilitating pain and deformities.  Then the doc started her on Remicade infusions.  

This med is her saving grace miracle!  She has a monthly infusion and feels great.  Plus she does daily hot yoga.  The combo of the Remicade and the hot yoga keep her feeling great and looking foreward to every tomorrow.

Congrats on the good appt. Hope you hear back on the medication soon!

Morning everyone. So, I'm going to talk about the QOTD first, so those of you who don't want to hear my incessant whining about my first world problems can just read this part and skip the middle.

We have a king size fancy memory foam pillowtop. I can't remember which brand, but it was one of the big named ones. It cost about 10 times as much as I spent on my first car. It's just okay. I still sometimes wake up in the morning with a sore lower back, but I don't think any matress will fix it. My oldest son has a super fancy extra plush king size mattress. About 4 years ago, we got rid of the old queen size that my husband had since he was in college. We got this awesome, extra plush matress, the kind that they have in the Belagio in Vegas. It was even named for that. Well, I got pregnant in 2013 (with the help of a reproductive endo) and could not sleep on that matress anymore. It was so plush I couldn't even roll over in it. Super Morbid obesity + extra luxurious pillowtop = turtle stuck on it's back and can't get up. I used to wake up in the middle of the night, literally not being able to get comfortable. So, we went and bought a new matress. It was much firmer, and much more expensive than the fancy plush thing my 16 year old sleeps on. He's complained that it's too fluffy too, but he's stuck with it, lol.

So, on to my first world problems. I had a mini breakdown this morning. It's probably a little bit of hormones (but shark week is over a week away), but mostly it's just that I just got an asston of **** dropped on me at work yesterday, my husband has been gone all week, my house is a disaster and I was out of anything good for breakfast (I found my low carb tortillas hiding behind the milk in the fridge). I snapped at my 2 year old, texted my husband that I was going to run away and then cried like a baby for about 30 minutes. Then I got my **** together, snuggled my kiddo and apologized to him while getting him ready to go. I'm just so tired of the stress. I feel trapped, everybody wants something all of the time and I feel pulled in 30 different directions. I complained to my boss yesterday and all I get from her is "welcome to my nightmare". I'm so close to walking away, but I have bills I have to pay and I can't do that to my husband. He is the only reason I'm still at my job. I've realized, they can't pay me enough to deal with this **** any longer. I can feel the urge to run coming on strong. I have this very strong flight reflex, and years ago when I was having severe anxiety I actually kinda ran away for the day. My family called the police because after I dropped my oldest off at daycare (he was a toddler, so we're talking 14 years ago) I didn't go to work, I just kept driving. I ended up at a crises center, talking to a therapist, who did absolutely nothing to make me feel better. I went home that night and just got through it, but it was like torture. I don't see my therapist until Tuesday. I'll see if I can hold off until then. Hell, if I can make it through these next two days I'll probably at least feel a little better next week. Have a mentioned, I HATE my job? I think I'm going to get an appointment for my doc to see if he'll give me some xanax for days like this. I'm so high strung and stressed out I feel like I"m goign to just jump right out of my skin. I've never taken anything like it, so maybe it will help.

Food plan for the day:

6.5 months since surgery

B: 1 scambled egg with 1/2 oz mozzarella on 1/2 a low carb tortilla

L: crab delights with a bit of mayo (fake crab seafood salad), a low sodium pickle

D: **** it, I'm eating my 80/20 ground beef as a burger in 1/2 a low carb tortilla. I don't care if it's over 200 calories for the burger! I'll put reduced sugar ketchup, a bit of canola oil mayo, romaine lettuce and some pickle chips. NOMNOMNOM

S: Light and fit greek strawberry yogurt, 1/2 a white chocolate raspberry quest bar and possibly some turkey pepperoni if I have the munchies lately. The pepperoni is way better than the flipping piece of wheat toast with peanut butter I ate last night. I'm stress eating people and I felt so sick after I did it. Toast and bread doesn't sit well with me, even small pieces.

totals:

Calories 796 Protein 71 Carbs 53 Fat 45

If you are a praying person, please say a little prayer for me. I'm feeling very not good today and I know it's ALL emotional **** I have a lot of issues, and they all are seeming to come out of the woodwork right now. I feel like I'm on a rollercoaster. This is the only place I feel safe to vent. I would never post any of this **** on facebook, too many real life family and friends would be getting into my business and I can't have that.

Praying for grace to handle the stress... and eat the damn burger and don't fret about it.

Sorry you had a rough start to your day. Glad we can "listen" and offer some virtual support. I hope your day gets better. Saying a special prayer for you.