Sorry if this is something that belongs on a blog but I just wanted to share.  Yesterday was the 10 year anniversary of my husband's suicide.  I realized that this was the first year that I dealt with it without food.  I guess I used food to make myself feel better - that's what got me to 250 lbs over the years (though I've always been obese or overweight).  Instead I went for a run, reflected, and just felt the feelings.  Weird.  I guess it's a victory in some ways, yet a real reminder that the struggle is always there.  Thanks for listening.

Sending you a virtual hug my dear! What a victory indeed! I know that I too will always have that natural urge to use food for comfort because that was my solace and solution for every emotion for 53 years. As long as we fight the fight we HAVE got this! Habits can be broken and new healthy solutions found one step at a time.

2 things.  

This is a victory for you that is so amazing.  Its not just getting through something but you are finally handling the most extreme emotions in a healthy manner and not destroying yourself to bring you physical feelings down to your emotional feelings.  You just "felt them" and that is what so healthy.  I struggle with this and I am very jealous, but very happy for you.

The second thing is I just want to say I'm sorry.  I can't imagine it.  You are in my thoughts and prayers today.  

Sending you hugs and am so proud of you for getting through such an emotional day without turning to food to feel better. You are an inspiration.

Skinny reaches out to hold ILOVERAVENS hand.

I am sorry for your loss and pain. I am happy that you are finding constructive (not destructive ways) to cope and find your way thru.

The struggle is always there. It is how we deal with it that effects our lives. I have dealt with the death of my mom (@ age 9), dad (@ age 22), a divorce, and the suicide of my sister (5 years ago). I allowed the food and depression to take over my life so that I could keep other people away from me. I would do anything to have them all back (except the ex-husband) but I know that will not happen. All I can do now is live my life for me and do everything I can to make sure I am happy and healthy. This is the best that I have felt in years and I am so excited about what the future finally holds for me.

You have done an amazing job and your future is out there for you as well. Hugs to you friend!!!

Oh my that's so much loss for one person.  I'm sorry :( Thank you for sharing. 

Thank you so much for this sad and sweet post, and for letting us listen.  Best to you in all your victories, and all your struggles.

Don't apologize for sharing, and don't "guess" that it's a victory. Moving forward the way you have is a huge victory. I can't imagine going through what you did.

You've worked really hard. Pat yourself on the back, you deserve it. And thank you for sharing. It couldn't have been easy.

Hugs to you.

Its hard.  The journey is tough, and I'm sorry for your loss, but I also congratulate you on choosing positives (running, reflecting) and letting the feelings happen. It's a huge victory.