Mixed emotions
Sunday afternoon, my mom lost her 3 year battle with metastatic colon cancer. It's been a very difficult week with lots of stress and tears. We are so relieved that mom is no longer suffering and is finally at peace. This morning was my first quiet morning so I climbed onto the scale and I'm 198. I'm thrilled but there are so many mixed emotions - she was the first one I wanted to call and give the good news. I'm going to try to get all my food in today and hope to track my food for the first time in a week. The next week and a half will be difficult preparing for mom's services. Then we have to pour through 40 years of furniture, photos, and a landslide of memories. I'm doing my best to take it one day at a time, but boy - this is tough.
So sorry for your loss. Do the best you can food-wise and keep up your fluids. Sending hugs and prayers your way.
HW: 276 SW: 254.1 GW: 125 CW: 154.5
on 6/17/15 11:59 am - WI
I'm so sorry you're going through these struggles. I had revision surgery on May 18 and my dad passed away the morning of the 19th. I feel as though I'm putting more pressure on myself because I still want my dad to be proud of me. He and my mom have been so supportive of me with everything I do, but especially my weight. I feel like my weight loss has been slowed down because I haven't been able to truly grieve my dad - my mom didn't want to do a memorial service without me there (we live in different states). It's all a little surreal for me.
Prayers and healing thoughts for you!