Started class at Y tonight - did not go well :(
I'm a hot mess since the class Monday. After thinking about it long and hard I just don't think I can go back because I really really can't keep up. It wasn't a little bit, it was a lot.
Monday morning I was really happy because that is the day I weigh myself and I lost 7 pounds - I've been losing really slowly - 2 or 3 pounds a week. I've been really bummed about how little I'm losing because I have so much to lose and I feel like I'm never going to get there. So I lost 7 pounds and then made the mistake of weighing myself again today - which I never do because I can become obsessive- and I gained 5 of those pounds back. I want to cry. I feel like I'm on an uphill battle that is never going to get better - I see so many others in the same weight range who've lost twice or three times as much in this time frame.
Melinda
HW: 377 SW: 362 CW:131
TOTAL LOSS: 249 pounds
Melinda,
you are my hero. Or one of them - I have many heroes and heroines on OH. But you are now one of them.
I am not shy and love being in front of people. I even perform (lead singer) in a classic rock band for fun! I have no issue doing that, or speaking professionally to hundreds of people - even at this weight.
But put me in exercise clothes with a group of thin people? I can't bring myself to do it. I would die of shame. I work out at home on my equipment, or to DVD's. But I'm literally looking in the window at Zumba classes, eating my heart out, wanting so desperately to join. I haven't yet found the courage to do it.... Yet.
But Melinda, YOU HAVE INSPIRED ME TO TRY. That's right. You feel like you're a hot mess, and feel that you somehow failed on Monday, but I assure you that you did not fail. You have inspired me to put myself out there and try. I won't try a step class (my knees are not ready for that yet) but I will try a group class, of some sort. And I will walk in there with head held high, just like all of you who have gone before me. And I will do it because YOU INSPIRED ME.
Please, please, don't give up. Please find another class, another way, and try again.
And thank you so much for this post. I think you rock.
Christine
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137 pounds lost - from a 24/26W to a size 8/10!
You are so brave! I waited to take a class until I was 3/4 of the way down. I walked until I could run., I ran alone for 16 months because I was afraid for anyone to see me. A new place opened in my town and I went the first day so I would be lost with everyone else! Lol.