7 years out

thank u so much

Wendy, I applaud you for coming here and telling us what's happening with you.  I know it wasn't easy.  I'm glad to hear that you're talking to someone about it.  Congrats on your maintenance!   I'm not sure my brain will ever get the message that my body has had surgery.  

thank u.  I think PARTS of my brain know & parts are still in denial LOL. good luck to u on ur journey

Thanks for your post.  I also said a prayer for you.  I have "thought" about eating something that would make me sick (for me that would be sugary things) and just chewing and spitting it out.  But i know that it is not wise.  I saw a program on The Learning Channel (TLC) on addict interventions and they had an episode on a lady that chewed and spit.  It showed her carrying a cup around the house and chewing and spitting - it was pretty gross.  She did it in front of her family members.  Just seeing her "do" the behavior kept me from following through on my thoughts to do it myself.

I wish you all the best.  Bringing things out in the "light" is a good start.  Keep coming back to these boards and hold yourself accountable.

Penny