7 years out

thank u & god be with u on ur journey as well

I think the fact that you recognize it, can admit it, and are proactive about getting help is so awesome! Maybe this is something you will have to work through for a long time since it comes and goes. I think your determination to do the right thing and hold yourself accountable is wonderful and obviously stronger than "her". Keep up the great work and keep fighting for yourself and come back more often. :)

thank u

Thank you, thank you, thank you for your lucid post.  I am 20 months out and have been losing control for an untold amount of time now.  I feel like I am free falling.  I never come on here anymore, mistake number 1, and I am unable to organize how I am feeling out of control yet but I have gained 5 lbs so I am almost in panic mode.  You have helped me see a number of things to do to  help myself.

thank you!  I am feeling fat, like a failure and just unstable.  Isn't that a kick in the head?  I do need to find a bariatric surgeon in this area if they will accept me for follow up cuz my primary doesn't want that responsibility.  I also think finding a support group which I have never had would help and then, of course, using my plate or whatever that thing is I used to use so religiously and coming here and also the support group on here for those who have lost their way.  I never thought after all my hard work that I would be having "issues" but as you say, I have MONSTERS and sadly they are more alive and well apparently than my healthy self.  Aaaarrrggh.

On the other hand, I have to laugh at myself.  I am in distress cuz I am wearing 8-10, sized medium to large when I used to be a 22-24.  I am 67 years old, 5 ft 1 but at least medium boned for real.  I am no delicate flower.  I weigh 130 as of Friday and my goal weight was 125.  I was down to 120 but hubby was really unhappy as was daughter and to be honest, I looked a bit skeletal and felt not so good.  So 125 was a good weight.  I started at 230 as my highest and was about 222 on the day of surgery. 

The distress is from feeling out of control.  Not knowing .... just not taking the few minutes to log in and be accountable.  

Thank you. I feel like I can at least start this morning doing better than I have.  

I hope you continue to post as you have helped one person here besides yourself and that is me!  I am most appreciative!  God bless you.

 

thank u so much & may god be with u as u continue ur journey

Welcome back!   Actually some of us saddo's do still hang out on here - both to get support and give support!

OH is the sort of place you can eschew when it gives you nothing and come back when you have a need.   There are always people here willing to give you support, even when they don't know who you are.   It is, for the most part, a kind and giving place.   I hope this confession is cathartic and you are able to get whatever you need to feel back on track.

Good luck!

thanks

First of all, thank you for your open and honest post, and for feeling comfortable enough with this forum to share with those of us likely going thru the same or similar issues. I am also a huge binge eater, but I don't spit. So I take in loads of calories. Yesterday I ate 2300 calories and feel awful this morning. I've gained 2 lbs so far and see. Ya elf spiraling out of control. I need to get help, I know this, but I do appreciate ppl like you post honest and open confessions bc it does help all of us. I wish you all the best in your journey and hope you stay connected with this forum.

thank u & I wish u the best in ur continuing journey as well

Wendy, I applaud your courage in acknowledging your issue. Being honest with oneself is a giant step forward in the process. It is so easy to deny our reality because of our pain and shame, but you are on the way to recovery!  You will be in my prayers.

Sheri