Revising to Bypass

I dream of the day I can be under 200lbs. I haven't seen that since 8th or 9th grade. 150 is what I've always wanted to aim for as an end result. I hope I can get this done. My surgeon says to wait for a call from him. When I left his office on Wednesday I literally sat in my car and just cried. I drove for an hour in tears. I'm so over all this stress, I just want to lose the weight. Everyone on here is really giving me hope!

Rachel - I can totally relate to the stress you are going through.  I just wanted the whole thing over, I wanted the band out & the revision done on my time schedule, not on the doctors.  I didn't want to see the scale keep creeping upwards, past 230, 240, 250 & finally at 265 where it stayed.  It sickened me to look in the mirror, to be naked, I felt out of place among all the "thinner" people.  

I felt like the people I work with were judging me - though most of them didn't even know when I had my band removed, as I went back to work only 3 days later (stupid me).  With all of the medical stuff going on, I'm learning to take a breath, and relax.  Its VERY VERY hard, I just wanted it to be over, come on, hurry up is what I kept saying.  Patience, I kept the surgery date to myself and to a couple of close people until 3 days before the surgery.  I work in a doctors office, so not all of the doctors even knew I was going on leave.

You will have you day  and when you do, you will be such a happy woman.  You will feel like such a big weight has been lifted off your shoulders.  You will find you can sleep a bit better at nite.  Please keep one thing in mind - the weight will not come off over nite - as we both know - as we've been through this before - it didn't appear over nite (sometimes it seems like it did though), it comes off regularly, at its own pace.  Patience!

Breathe!! You will get through this, we are all here to help you.

Rebecca