On the other side of a bad day

Oh sure. You can put food in your mouth and eat it mindlessly but it doesn't mean that my body will react mindlessly. It's pretty predictable. I've been paying for my mistakes for hours now. This was emotional eating. Emotional eating I have not visited since March 2013. I've been really good. I will still be really good. Right now I have to own my bad decisions. I think I need to  work out a plan to have safe indulgences from time to time instead of feeling like I never get anything special to eat. I have plenty of recipes I could have turned to for a low carb and sugar free treat. I didn't. I chose to make a bad decision. It's not worth it no matter what. It feels horrible. I don't even remember how nice the treat tasted. But my body is still pretty pissed at me. ******g up my plan pretty good and hanging my head low. Back to keeping my head on straight and remembering the quiet of my bedroom when I need to de-stress from THREE TEENAGERS.  Momma Growl in full force. 

Great accountability post, but don't be so hard on yourself. Sounds like you have everything you need to beat it. The physical reaction can really underscore the need to avoid certain foods. In general I would try unwind the situation a bit. I know in my case I have a habit of building things up to all or nothing. To change this I try to focus on one day at a time. Every day is a new day and I start back on my plan.

Agree! Great advice

Thank you for response. These are excellent ideas and I will start this today. The morning is already better than yesterday and I've got a whole new library of workout videos I found through Amazon Prime. Free instan****ch to prime members. I think I'll check that out today to keep my head out of the fridge. 

You are way too hard on yourself. Get a grip on the mental side or maintaining your weight will be impossible. I do not think of food as "good" or "bad". It's just food. Forgive yourself and move on.

Thank you. Surprisingly enough, OH and Bariatric Kitchen Discussion Group on Facebook has helped me tremendously. Helped me to keep my mind in the right place and not self sabotage. I'm no stranger to the mental struggles in this journey and hope to continue to get stronger and stronger so when maintenance arrives I will truly be maintaining and not on a 5 lb roller coaster. Yesterday was bad and today will be better. Everyone's insight is very helpful. 

I agree completely with the advice given to you, but I have to tell you - I LOVE the "Momma Growl"!!

Hehe - thank you!!

Don't beat yourself up too much...you have paid the price. Now just come up with a plan to move forward. Emotional self-flagellation won't help.

But you took accountability and that is huge!

Thank you. Sharing my mess up was important because if I'm not working to fix it I'm stuck in it. Totally fixing it.