mind games raging in my head!
So I'm feeling angry with myself because I feel like I laid around all day and binged. Before, I wouldnt have minded laying around and "binging" would have consisted of nibbling on a big bowl of mac n cheese all day. For breakfast I'd have a poptart and then I'd be making a hamburger and fries for lunch and making extra to save for dinner but then end up eating that too. I'd have a couple glasses of whole milk and maybe a cup of ice cream. Today, my binging means that I ate half a protein shake for breakfast (which is my norm) but then just over a cup of cooked spinach with a lil bit of cheese at lunch. I normally only eat a lil over 1/2 a cup. And then I ate and 2 brownie bites and a 1/2 cup of milk and I didn't get in all my liquids that I should have by this point. I look at that and think ok? why am I so upset? but it is the first time since surgery that I feel like I knowingly messed up and I'm just upset. My husband brought me home a delicious healthy salad for dinner and I feel like I've already consumed enough calories for the day but I feel like if I don't eat dinner, I'll be really hungry and feel deprived and by breakfast I'll repeat my mistakes of today! AAaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!! These mind games!
Well here is the deal--you cannot undo the last 12 hours, but you CAN make better choices in your next bajillion hours of life. You are right--you did not binge as you once would have, but at least you recognize the poor choices you made earlier today WERE poor choices and that you have opportunities for better choices.
Now personally, I'd be skipping that salad and having some serious protein and then drinking a large glass of fluid before bed.
If you must kick yourself, do it on a run or long walk after dinner! :)
HW333--SW 289--GW of 160 5' 11" woman. I only know the way I know & when you ask for input/advice, you'll get the way I've been successful through my surgeon & nutritionist. Please consult your surgeon & nutritionist for how to do it their way. Biggest regret? Not doing this 10 years ago! Every day is better than the day before...and it was a pretty great day!
Some day maybe they can combine RNY with a lobotomy..... but until then, we work on the head games the hard way! Yes, eat some protein for dinner & get your liquids in tonight but remember that tomorrow is another day - it doesn't have memory of yesterday. Start anew, learn from what didn't work, and try to figure out what set you up for the binge. ( I try to write out what puts me at risk and what I can do to prevent and post it in the areas I'd be likely to binge.)
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on 8/18/13 2:24 pm
There is a trick I play with my brain called "whatever...enough" Basically when I find myself replaying a food mistake over and over in my head, I say firmly, sometimes even out loud, "whatever". Then take a breath and say "enough" then take another breath and say "next" and turn my attention to something totally else...cleaning, calling a friend, doing a hobby or whatever. that way I am not making my mistakes in twos...one is the mistake, two is replaying the mistake and how horrible my brain tells me I am because of it, over and over in my head. Whatever. enough. Next. 
Why are you only drinking half a protein shake? Are you getting enough protein? I have a protein shake for breakfast as well, but I drink the whole thing. I probably should have another before dinner because I don't usually get enough protein throughout the day.
