Lost a family member and for the first time I did not turn to food.
I just lost my cousin to breast cancer. She was 37. I was very very close to her so my heart is broken. When I found out she had passed I realized I wanted to turn to food but also realized that was not an option. Instead of drowning my pain in food I am having to let myself work through my feelings of anger that she was taken to soon and the sadness that she is gone and missing her so much my heart hurts.
This has been eye opening for me. I never realized that I was turning to food to take away the pain. Now I am learning a different way to deal with emotion and pain.
My heart goes out to you on the loss of your cousin. May the memories you have of her through your life bring you comfort in your sorrow. You did something for yourself today by not turning to food and I congratulate you for being so strong in spite of your grief. All the best, 
Believe in yourself and don't ever stop dreaming!
Congratulations. That is a big step in the right direction. I've had a similar situation recently with my Grandma and actually went to Dunkin Donuts and bought a bag full...cried hard for about an hour....sat on my bed looking at the bag of donuts but I couldn't bring myself to eat even one bite. I ended up throwing them all away and being so thankful I was able to be strong (well mostly---i was weak enough to buy them but strong enough to not eat them). It is not easy to do the right thing especially during very stressful times. I am very sorry for your lost.
I am so sorry for your loss, but the fact that you now see how you previously turned to food to soothe negative emotions is a HUGE step forward to a healthier life! Be gentle with yourself while you grieve this loss.
Lora
14 years out; 190 pounds lost, 165 pound loss maintained
You don't drown by falling in the water. You drown by staying there.
