Unmotivated. Ugh. And up four lbs! Really?! STUPID RANT

Just need to get it out. I'm not expecting anything. Just feels good to get my thoughts out there in the open. Especially here where I'm sure people understand.

Yeah. I'm up 4 lbs, which probably mean nothing, but when you work your butt off and see that in the morning, it's a bummer. Actually, I'm up 6 from my lowest, but I had gotten sick from a trip to Central America, so that's why I got down to 136. Now I'm 142.

Aside from all that I have no motivation to exercise. None. At all. Which sucks. I already had to take a day off earlier this week cause of work, so I really don't want to take another day off. But I'm literally sitting on the couch with no intention of getting up and moving. Maybe it's my allergies.

Oh, and to top it off, I think my hormones are all outta whack. Couple days ago I was sitting at the gas station waiting for the person ahead of me to finish and started crying. Why? No clue! Just wanted to cry I guess. Kinda what I wanna do now. Ugh.

I hate feeling like this. I'm usually so cheery and happy. This just makes me feel even crappier. And I know exercising always makes me feel good when I'm done, which should motivate me to do it. But I'm lazy or something.

Okay, stupid rant over. Maybe I'll go for a walk. Take it easy.

I just posted about not losing and being confused. 

 

You can do it!  Take a deep breath go in the closet and scream every bad word you know then come out and thank God no one heard you.  LOL  Not medicaly proven to do anything but make you smile afterwards.  LOL  And besides it cant hurt right?  :-) 

 

I am here for ya girlie! 

Lol! Well, just the idea of me trying to get into my overstuffed closet made me laugh! Thanks!

I'm sorry ((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))

Thanks Lori.

so totally feel u on this one im up 4lbs and i feel sooooooo pissd rt now i feel like i was moving fwd so good then this i feel like its a step bkwrds,,,sometimes we dnt have cntrol over what are bodys want to do... its just gonna do it wether we like it or not,,,sorry if i dnt make u feel any better but just wanna let u know your not alone,,, hugssss

And you know... I should know this better than anyone. I read stuff like this daily. But when it you and YOU feel like this, it sucks. Thank you. It does feel like a step backwards. It's nice to know I'm not alone.

But I decided I'm not gonna let this drag me down. I got up off the couch and worked out or an hour. I'm glad I did.

I wanted to say (not to make this about me) but I have been stuffing my feelings for so long and keeping them at bay with food that I have forgotten how to cry.  I wish I could cry sometimes, but I am afraid I'll just totally fall apart if I do.  I know that after WLS that I won't have the option of stuffing my feelings and numbing myself with food.  In a way, I'm looking forward to learning how to cry again.  To get it out and feel better.  

I'm sorry you have been stuck and had some regain.  I'm on my pre-op diet and I haven't lost nearly as much weight as I thought I would.  The bright side is that I'm not craving sugar right now, so it at least is tolerable.

And remember this week there have been a lot of really bad things in the news.  I don't know what it is all about, but we're all feeling it.

There's a song that I love and use when I'm feeling challenged.  It is "Only a Mountain," by Jason Castro.  The words alone may not translate into much encouragement, however it's worth a try:

Another day, another fight
It always feels like an uphill climb
Another step, another mile
The story of your life
It's harder than you ever thought
And it costs you everything you've got
When you're back against the wall
And you feel like giving up

(Chorus)
This is only a mountain
You don't have to find your way around it
Tell it to move, it'll move
Tell it to fall, it'll fall
This is only a moment
You don't have to let your fear control it
Tell it to move, it'll move
Tell it to fall, it'll fall

You've gotta find a second wind
It's not as high as you think it is
Don't give up and don't you quit
You gotta climb if you wanna win

And I know it looks big
And I know you feel small
But just a little bit of faith can change it all
Change it all

Chorus

Ask like you believe it
Trust like you can see it
Take your fear and say
There's nothing in your way, no oh
Even when it looks big
Even when you feel small
Just a little bit of faith can change it all

Chorus

It's only a mountain
Just a little bit of faith can change it all
 

Here' s a You Tube link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UxWayfx3p2s

Thanks guys. I am feeling a bit better now that I've gotten up and moved. Thanks for all the kind words.