Wearing old clothes again....

First I must say that I went to bed last night with prayers in my heart and woke up in the wee hours of the morning to go on my morning run 6 miles total with a prayer in my heart ... sending heartfelt prayers and healing light to all affected directly or indirectly by the horror that unfolded in Boston yesterday .... I for one believe in the continuation of life and in the inherent good of people ... because in this awesome world that humanity in all its diversity fills there are hundreds of good people for every bad one or group that there is .... I believe in goodness and I am rooting for the helpers!!! ....

These are Snippets of my journey ...  my entry in my digital empowerment journal today ....

Wearing old Are my clothes old now??? YIKES ... I am wearing my old clothes

YIKES ... are these old clothes now??? my oh my how fast time flies .... 6 years and almost 3 months out can I call these that were 'my new tiny clothes' OLD CLOTHES NOW???? I mean ... I posted this picture back in May of 2010 ... I was 3 years and 3 months post op them .... I made my awesome suit from scratch in one of my favorite colors ... I cut it and fit it to a duct tape body form that I made myself ... and I took a comparison picture for my empowerment journal and I posted it in my photo area on OH too ... it is still there ... AN OLD OH PHOTO ... 3 years and 3 months out that is .... oh hell no it is not old ... my journey will be new for-ever ... I love it that way ....

and now TODAY  I AM WEARING OLD CLOTHES AGAIN ...6 YEARS AND ALMOST 3 MONTHS OUT .... DOUBLE THAT TIME ... I am wearing these very same clothes THAT I MADE MYSELF... for the same or better fit even,,, today as I slipped into them ... SHOULD I CALL THEM OLD CLOTHES???? now??? YIKES I thought the old clothes were the 4-5X and size 32s and then 28s and then 26s and then 24s and then 18s and then jump to 14s and then 12s and then 9s and then 6s and then some 4s that I have given away except a piece or two for comparison were my old clothes .... I am so NOT ready to call these old yet and I am rocking them to work today .... too bad I could not find the shoes in my shoe closet and goodness knows where in my array of hairpieces that piece is or whether it has been long given away...

Me at work today ... same out fit that I wore 3 years and 3 months post op at 6 years and almost 3 months post op...

I sat at my desk on break and as I meditated and wondered whether to write in my journal or not I decided that life will go on ... and I will continue to believe in the goodness of men ... that goodness and light will overcome evil and darkness ALWAYS ... I will seek goodness in the midst of tragedy and I will root for the helpers and be a helper myself in any measure that I can...

I enjoyed an awesome apple on break ...

and I meditated ... I remember my 'A picture a Day Keeps the Pounds and Inches Away' taken on yesterday .... it froze on my screen as I stared in disbelieve and horror at the news flash ... I could not post ... my mind wracked with worry and filled with prayer as I tried to console a co-worker who had friends running in that race ... thank goodness they are all well ...

I have since purposed myself to enjoy and cherish every little bit of life in me and around me .... because my mom once said 'on our wellest day we are fit enough to die' ,,, my heart bleeds for all those innocent people celebrating a Patriots day experiencing the horror of an evil act...

Today is a new day .... yesterday is gone ... and while it should never be forgotten let the healing begin and let the meditation of our hearts produce a message of love and peace!

My yesterday ... gone but not forgotten...

and me today ... 6 years 3 months post op ...

I AM GRATEFUL ... "There is JOY and there is EVIL in equal measures in this world ... I am embracing JOY and making it happen to me..." thank you Mary for sharing those awesome words with me years ago....

For lunch I will partake of an awesome Nova Scotia lox with cream cheese, red onions and tomatoes on a half of toasted whole wheat bread for lunch ... courtesy of my DH ... because again I ran out of the house forgetting my lunch behind ... he brought it to me ... I LOVE THAT MAN!

Thanks for allowing me to share MY THOUGHTS ... and SNIPPETS of my journey....

“When I was a boy and I would see scary things in the news, my mother would say to me, ‘Look for the helpers. You will always find people who are helping.’ To this day, especially in times of ‘disaster,’ I remember my mother’s words, and I am always comforted by realizing that there are still so many helpers - so many caring people in this world.” — Mister Rogers

Marta.....What can I say?  You know I love you girl.

OMG the pickle is up and posting ((((((((((((((((((((((BIG HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))  MY BEAUTIFUL-EST BAF sista with the arms that I so admire .... LOVE YA RIGHT BACK!!!!! Now I feel like I won the lo-te-reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! squeeeeeee ... I am so happy to see are up and UP!!!! YAY You!!!

I needed a smile today.

I am glad I made you smile Lynn ... my DH chuckled even as I was on all fours fliging shoes around in my shoe closet trying to find the match to those in the picture I posted in 2010 LOL .... and YUP did the same with the hair ... and gave up because I refuse to be late to work ever....LOL