I am proud of myself.....but it has made me realize.....

Hello All -

Happy Friday Eve!

So today has been a horrific day at work - so stressful I sit here shaking like a total lunatic on the verge of tears and ripping all of my hair out and lighting it on fire.........whew.......

All I can think about is candy bars.........I want one.....my little voice that helped me to be almost 300 pounds 6 1/2 months ago is telling me - one won't hurt you, you deserve it - it has been a rough day, it will perk you up....blah blah blah

My New voice - the one that has helped me lose 85 pounds in 6 1/2 months is saying - get up and walk away, you deserve better than a candy bar, be kind to yourself, walk around, give your body something good, take a deep breath.....

I am making a good choice - I have walked away from my desk a few times .... I have had some water, I am breathing deep, and I am very happy that I have made good choices today...

It has made me realize that that voice is always going to be there and I just am going to have to tell it to STFU and do what I need to do to be healthy and maintain my commitment to myself!  Dang voices!

Surgery does not make all of the food issues go away.......it just has given me tools to make choices that are right for me!

Thanks for letting me vent

xoxoxoxo ~ Ellie

You are exactly right.  It never goes away, but the "habit" of soothing with food does fade away over time.  I no longer automatically think of a bag of dark chocolate peanut M&Ms when I have a stressful day....I now think about how I'm gonna beat the crap out of a punching bag when I get to the gym!!

You are on the right track! Take a nice long bubble bath this evening.

I think Kim is right. I haven't had the experience yet, but I quit smoking a number of years ago and I still (every now and then) have an intense urge to smoke one. Crazy!! I don't even have to be around them like at a bar or something. I could just be sitting at my desk and the thought pops in my head, "Hey, it's time for a cigarette! Just one. C'mon, it'll make ya feel real good!."

Just sayin', it gets easier even if it never goes away.

Good for you!!!  I'm not there yet at all, but I sure hope it happens!!!  I get so bored or lonely in the evening home alone and before I always used food as my comfort, something to do.  I can't do that anymore!!!  I need to find a replacement for that so I am not thinking about it all the time.  I miss some foods very badly!!! 

Go you!!!!!

good job!

Good for you!! It's a battle, for sure. You had one big victory today by saying NO to the candy and YES to the walking.