There is "BETTER THAN FOOD FOR COMFORT" indeed.... XP

Thank you for your kind words Dagne ... I figured that since I am going to miss her anyway and am going to be saddened by her absence anyway even knowing that she is in a better place now where there is no more pain... I best occupy myself doing something ,,, anything.... not because I am all that altruistic but because I was driving myself nuts with grief ... so I occupied ...got creative and it made me feel so much better and my clouds lifted ... then I did my hair and put on a bit of makeup .. and I started to feel more like my normal through this challenge. I took bits of lace and decorated a little basket my teeny poodles love to sit in .. of course they saw it as a feast to party with and they pulled it all apart ... especially my teeny pocketbook poodle Chip ... they made me insanely happy ... the fact that my sister and I and my whole family share a love for poodle made me hug them a bit tighter ... they are totally therapeutic...

Thanks again for your kind words...

I`ve had a lot of close family members pass away this year, and most horrific was my brother drowning this past Summer. I`ve come to realize he is not really gone, physically I can`t see or hug him but he is here with me all the time. So is your sister! She lives within you, and protects you and listens & guides you. I truly believe that. I ask my brother & father for help all the time with guidance.God bless you, you will never be alone 

Thank you so very much for your kind words and for sharing your experience with me ... my heart goes out to you and I am so very sorry for your loss ... your words have touched my heart today... today is the mass celebrating her life and in April we will travel to the Bahía de los Delfines in Panamá (translates Dolphin's Bay) to inter her urn per her wishes. Like your brother she will live within me always ... you are right, like you, I will never be alone.