6 Months - Attitude of Gratitude - What I have learned!
Hello All -
Happy Friday! It has been a long week.
I posted a sort of pity party post yesterday and had some really uplifting anf great comments from members here! I have shifted my attitude from self doubt to 100% gratitude!
Here is what I have learned in 6 months:
I am truly happy - happy with the decision that I have made, where am with my loss and my life!
I am finally healthy - in 6 months going from severe sleep apnea, type II diabetes, high blood pressure, stress incontinence etc to no CPAP machine, bp of 117/71, no need for metformin anymore, and no more tinkling because of my weight. I am healthy - finally! I know that by continuing with my new life and choices I have extended my life span and I will be around to enjoy life with my family and friends!
I am active - 6 months ago walking around my block had me in tears - I was in pain and embarrassed, I couldn't run, I couldn't fit in an amusement park ride...today - I run on the treadmill 3x a week, I walk fast, I can fit on an amusement park ride, I am no longer embarrassed by my size! I am going to buy a bike and ride the dang thing this summer - I am planning 5k races and enjoying this new part of my life - moving and grooving!
I am loved - the support and love of my husband and daughter is so much that I could explode - I am full to the brim with love. I am loved by my friends - and I have many new friends! I also love myself......I truly see the gifts that I have - I no longer hide behind my size and I am learning to accept myself everyday
I am in control - I am in control of food, what I eat, how I eat, my choices are my own - it is very empowering - nothing controls me - I choose!
I have also learned that I have major baggage - all of the things that I have not dealt with and used my weight to cover up are coming to the surface - it is freeing and terrifying at the same time. I have learned who my true friends are and who I can cut from my circle. I have learned that being obese I have dealt with alot of discrimination - and coming to terms with that and how life used to be is very sobering - I have a new found respect for everyone - all shapes and sizes.....we all ghave to be kind to one another!
I have learned that I am more than a number, more than a size - I am a work in progress and am so happy to have been given a second chance!
Thank you all for all of your kind words and support!
