Two years ago today...
I changed my life. I put my life in the hands of people I had only met a few times, some not at all (the OR team). I trusted them to save my life and to bring the old me back to my husband and kids. It has been a long emotional road, especially lately with a torn rotator cuff and not being able to work out the way I want to I have gained a few pounds (part not exercising properly, part depression about the anger of the injury and other things), but it's ok...I know how to get it back off and I'm not freaking like I used to. The scale says one thing, but my clothes say another...they are too big again even though I have gained. I don't understand that, but whatever. I guess I'm rambling now, but this morning I realized what the date was and it hit me like a ton of bricks...I made my two years, and I don't know how to feel about it. I'm SO PROUD of the 140 pounds I have lost, but I wanted to but under 200 at this point, so I'm going back and fourth with being proud and disappointed in myself. I just keep thinking...holy **** I went from a size 28 to a size 16 (and they are baggy but not ready for a 14 yet, actually not sure, I'm afraid to try a size 14 for fear of them not fitting and being disappointed that they won't fit since I have not had skin removal surgery yet), and a 3XL to a L...HOW IS THAT NOT AN ACCOMPLISHMENT??? I guess my emotions have not caught up yet with all of the POSITIVES that my brain knows have occurred 
How did you all celebrate your two year anniversary? 
Nathan June 16, 2005 Haylee October 7, 2009
Getting help so I can live long with him and raise them to be the best they can be!
Ha! Oh I have SWAM!! That is what caused my shoulder issues! Believe it or not I was an NCAA swimmer and 200 butterfly was my best event. Then I developed a blood disorder (ITP) and the steroids and other treatments trashed my metabolism and I gained over 150 lbs over 8 years due to the treatments for the blood disorders and the shoulder!
Nathan June 16, 2005 Haylee October 7, 2009
Getting help so I can live long with him and raise them to be the best they can be!
