Air it Out Thread

When my daughter had her son and moved in with me we went thru the same issues only when I told her to clean up something her 3 year old son did her response to me was "Its not my fault, I didn't do it" and then sit there watching tv.  Like WTF did she think, was he supposed to clean up the walls himself?

Things are going pretty well for the most part and I'm trying to focus on the positive but a few things are bringing me down today, the first is that I developed an itchy red heat rash under one of my boobs and it hurts and looks ugly. I have figured out how to treat it but it's a bummer since I work out wearing cotton and keep my skin dry and do all the things to avoid rashes. My skin problems and food allergies are bumming me out lately since I have to watch everything or I get a reaction too.

I'm annoyed that I can't seem to enjoy any of the delicious banana bread that I make without gaining weight. I made banana bread again on Sunday and had an average piece and like last time when I wrote about this I waited two days and sure enough I gained 2 lbs. Before the bread the scale was going down. It seems to only happen with certain types of carbs so I have a decision to make, every time I want the bread I have to know it will show up on the scale do I want it that bad? Its a shame but the answer is probably no.

I'm bummed that I don't have it straight in my mind whether or not I want to get married but yet it seems like every time I turn around someone else is announcing their engagement and on the one hand I am happy for them but on the other I feel conflicted and wonder what the big deal is. Why do people have to have a ceremony to be validated and why does my family need to once again make me feel like s**T about myself for failing them in another way (not getting married). And on top of that I'm upset that my boyfriend hasn't proposed and probably never will so why do I even care? I dojnt know.

I'm rambling and am NOT seeking input or advice, really - just wanted to air it out.

Life is good for the most part but big issues remain.

My only gripe is with the person in the mirror.... made peace with my quantity of food, but now I have fallen (did a swan dive) completely off the good choice wagon. Yesterday my calories probably came pretty close to pre-op.

Dear 17 year old daughter.  I know you think you are an adult that can stay out all night and do what you want but then you want to act like a child and expect me to clean up after you and cook your food.  You can't have it both ways.  I am counting down the days until your 18th birthday when I can kick your ass out if you don't start helping around here.  My oldest will be 30 in a few weeks and I have spent the last 30 years raising kids and I am done.  If you want to live here you are going to have to pull your weight.  And I am not your chauffeur, either.  You know that big thing that comes buy every 1/2 hour or so?   It's called a bus.  Get used to it, that is your new personal driver.
I am tired of being poor.  I want a job.  I have gone on a lot of interviews and I am starting to feel like there is something wrong with me that everyone can see but me. I don't interview very well.  I freeze up when I am asked inane questions like "Where do you see yourself in 5 years?"  Hopefully still alive, you idiot.
I hate DEQ.  I have spent more time there in the last few weeks then I ever hoped to.  I have spent more money to fix a problem I didn't know existed to pass some arbitrary guidelines that do nothing but make money for the state.  
To the person that sold me this car and lied and told me it had a new clutch when in fact the transmission was going out.  Thanks for taking advantage of my stupidity when it comes to anything mechanical.  And also for not mentioning that the check engine light didn't work (or you disconnected it).  This car is a money pit.  I thought I got such a good deal.  Yeah right.  I have now spent 2 times the purchase price to keep it running and I could never sell it for nearly close to what I paid for it.  Yeah it gets great mileage but I doubt it will run long enough to save me enough in gas to make up what I have paid for in repairs.  And I don't know how I will afford new tires for this piece of crap.  You really saw me coming.
Andto  my stuck up, judgmental, non compassionate sister who doesn't understand how the government can pay someone disability because they are depressed.  She thinks I am scamming the government because I am lazy and I don't want to work and she has never accepted a penny from the government in her life and she resents working her ass off so people like me can sit home and watch soap operas and eat bonbons that her tax dollars pay for.  

 Oh damn.  I feel you on the 17 year old daughter.  Mine does help out, in her own way.  She does her laundry, she'll cook a meal or clean when she wants something.  But the whole doing whatever she wants thing is getting old.  Drinking.  Partying.  Staying out all night without letting us know.

Yeah, hopefully that little party was worth the MIP, court visit, community service, suspended license, $250 fine, $100 court fees, and $60 alcohol awareness course that is ALL coming out of your measly little 20 hour at minimum wage every two weeks paycheck that you quit select soccer, which was a HUGE source of college scholarships, to take.

Oh look I had another thing to air out.  :)

I told my daughter I would wash her clothes and she had to put them away.  Yeah, she threw them in her closet.  Not folded or hung up, just threw them there in a pile.  Just like when she takes her clothes off she just leaves them where they fall.  The only time she may cook is for her friends when they are  here.
Fortunately I haven't had a problem with her drinking or using drugs.  Not like her older sister.  That one is almost 21 and is now going to college, after dropping out of high school.  She went back last year for her GED and started going to college all on her own.  I never had to nag her about it, she just decided she needed to do it.  She's like a completely different person.  There is hope.
The younger one swears she doesn't drink or use drugs and I have never seen any signs or had any reason not to believe her.  Her friends do and they tease her about not joining in but she said she tried pot once and didn't like it and she's afraid of throwing up and since her friends throw up all the time after drinking she never wanted to.  They have even had her be the designated driver for them even though all she has is a permit and isn't a good driver.  She's still better then them when they are drunk.
She also got her GED when she was 16 and is now in school to become a legal assistant.  She is very smart and it comes fairly easy for her but at least she is working at it.  I've told her that as long as she was in school she could live here and if she gets a job she has to pay rent after she turns 18.
I don't even mind her staying out all night because she is in a Rocky Horror Picture Show shadow cast and is very involved with that and it doesn't finish until 2 or 3 am and then after wards they go out to eat.  As long as she keeps me up to date as to where she is I am okay with it.  She is a good kid, just a slob.

This is a frequent frustration of mine.

Why, WHY, would you put someone with such basic and limited computer and nursing knowledge in a position such as Director of Clinical Informatics?

I love my boss to death, she's an awesome person to work for, mostly very laid back.  But she's OCS for following directions to a T.  Rather than turn around she would make four right turns to get to a spot 3 inches behind her (figuratively).  She's frequently calling me in to her office to "help" her make something, which equates to me standing over her shoulder directing her actions, which ends up taking 15 times as long as it would have for me to create.  I have literally stood there for up to an hour at times watching her create a document.  She's one of those who does everything the same way.  In the same order.  Every time.  No shortcuts, not even cut and paste, everything is done with the mouse via the menu toolbar.

She has two Master's degrees.  Can we not learn how to create a basic formula in Excel or to format a word document?  I could accomplish SO much more in my day if it were not for times like that!

This has me that much closer to deciding to continue to get my Master's...

 You may as well get the pay for the work, right? ;)

When I started college years ago, computer classes were part of the prerequisite coursework. 

 EXACTLY!  :)

I think that she must still do everything exactly the same way, step by step, they taught it to her 10 years ago.  :)

To my stepmother: In the future, when our family is at a restaurant for my twins birthday party, and you want me to tell me that it is time for me to stop losing weight because it is starting to make me look OLD...please dont yell it across the very large table we are all sitting at, do it in private or not at all. Thank you!