Issues with becoming a smaller person?
I don't know if many have dealt with this but as I get smaller I feel a little akward, or different. And yes, I am different in size. It's hard to explain. I was this size about 11 years ago (when I was 18) and I didn't feel this way. But I was rather large from age 22 to 29. I hope that one day this size (and smaller because I'm not done) will feel like second nature.
Has anyone else gone through this? Does it get better and you feel normal?
Has anyone else gone through this? Does it get better and you feel normal?
I don't know if our issues are the same..but I'm *certainly* having issues. I look at my fingers and they look so akward..they look so long and thin..my legs are tiny. I purchased a pair of size 6 pants the other day and people are starting to ask me when I'm going to be done losing. However, I still feel like the biggest person in the room all the time, I look in the mirror and still dont see the 120lb loss. My husband is constantly commenting on being able to see my ribs and pelvis/hip bones. For me I'm pretty sure its going to take some therapy. Best of luck to both of us..
I totally understand what you are saying. I think I will always see myself as the biggest woman in the room.. I know I'm not, anymore, but my head doesn't wrap it's self around that reality. I'm kind of hoping that the nagging voice I hear in my head will also keep me in line when/if I ever get over my food issues and can really eat. I never had an issue stating that I was a fat girl but I'm pretty hesitant to state that I'm a thin one, even though I am. Pretty strange.
We should ask this question again next year, after we have had time to adjust to the massive changes we've gone through, it will be interesting to see how we perceive ourselves then :)
We should ask this question again next year, after we have had time to adjust to the massive changes we've gone through, it will be interesting to see how we perceive ourselves then :)
I remember having to adjust the way I walk and carry myself after I lost a significant amount of weight. But I never had the issue of seeing myself fat when I wasn't. I was always in denial about how big I was and really never saw how big I was....so I guess I shrunk down to the way I thought I looked anyway.....does that make sense??
Make sure you concentrate on good posture and walking like a lady....not a fat person. In time, it will be your new normal (provided there aren't underlying psycological issues that should be addressed).
Make sure you concentrate on good posture and walking like a lady....not a fat person. In time, it will be your new normal (provided there aren't underlying psycological issues that should be addressed).
I don't feel awkward or anything. I remember when I was bigger and I would dream of myself and the way I look now is how I would see myself in my dreams. The only thing I notice that I do now is sometimes when in a crowd, (like at the mall or at a club) I will need to get by someone or a group of people and I feel like I need more space than I really do. I was at the mall trying to get behind a lady and I said, "excuse me" and she looked up and said, "you can walk through." but in my head I couldn't cause I didn't fit, but I totally did! And I do that all the time. My sister tells me, just go! You fit! And until I do, I don't think I can. Then after I think, hey, I did fit! That's why I really want to go to six flags or an amusement park. I still dont thnk I fit on the rides (last time I went I didn't) and I'd like to see how it feels now.
Height:5'1.5 RNY:11/30/11 HW:307 SW:234 CW:136 GW:140 (LOST 73 Lbs. PRE-OP)
RNY on 09/17/12
I totally get it! I haven't had surgery yet, but I say all the time "I just can't see myself getting back thin". I think it's because I've been heavy for so long. I've spent so much time looking back at old pics and thinking "man I wish I was that size again"...it's like it won't come true. In a way, I'll be sad to say goodbye to the big me...it's all I've known for so long. And we're taught that we should like ourselves no matter what size we are, right. So in a way I feel like I'm sort of betraying myself...it's weird I know. I probably need some serious therapy lol! It will just take a while for your head to catch up. Congrats on your journey so far!
Shannon
Shannon