What are you eating/doing today? Tuesday!!!

My gym used to have a 6 am Body Pump but lack of attendance and they temporarily suspended it : (
3.2 miles this morning, Body Pump Express at lunch. Lots to do today.

Eats:
- Click and skim postrun/on the way to work
- grapes and cheese/watermelon
- sugar free cook n serve chocolate pudding with cool whip lite
- small chicken breast baked post BPX
- baby carrots and Greek yogurt dip
- no clue on dinner

meow

Today is...tough. My mother-in-law's cancer has spread to the point where it has caused a kink in her intestines. She cannot eat and they can't do anymore chemo until she's getting some kind of nutrition. They cannot do surgery to fix the kink because she is too ill. She has to choose between two options: Either have a 12 hour a day nurse come to give her IV nutrition and chemo or enter hospice care. It is times like this that I feel horrible, guilty, and ridiculous about any struggles I have with eating too much. I hate it. I'd give anything for her to be able to eat. There is nothing I can do except be there for her, and that doesn't feel like it's enough anymore.

I'm sorry to have vented so much, but I can't concentrate at all today.

Positive things: I got up and did my run this morning even though I was feeling depressed, which is a big deal to me. I resisted the urge to have an "I'm sad and I don't care" bagel and cream cheese from the bakery this morning. My husband and I are having lunch together today and I'm happy that I get to go see him during the work day.

Breakfast: Black coffee
Lunch: We're going to the hot bar near Joe's office and he tells me that their roasted turkey is very good and that there are lots of salads and other healthy options. Always looking out for me.
Snack: Maybe a yogurt. I didn't bring one today so I will have to pick one up somewhere in town.
Dinner: Zucchini fritters or steamed shrimp/vegetables from the Chinese place. It depends on how we're feeling.
Snack: An egg and wheat toast, or some yogurt and a peach.

I hope everyone has an excellent Tuesday. Hug your family.

So sorry your m-i-l is going through this and for you too. (((Hugs)))

Oh, Neen. What a position for her to be in. I can understand why you are stressed.

Vent away, honey. We are here for you!

 Vent away.  Such a tough place to be, I hope that she finds the peace she needs to make her decision.

 I'm feeling that Insane Cardio class I took last night!  I love that morning after feeling, that means it was a good workout!

24 oz water before breakfast
B - Fage, cherries, splenda, Special K protein cereal, ground flax
s - hot green tea, splenda, at least 48 oz water before lunch
L - I took some taco casserole out of the freezer.  I need to remember to take it out of the fridge before lunch so it thaws all the way.  Otherwise I'll have to venture off downstairs to the cafeteria to find a microwave.
s - I forgot my mint cookie protein (sob) so if I can't talk my kids into bringing me some (I may bribe them with lunch money or movie tickets) I'll just have to use my single serve Nectar stash in the desk drawer.  I only have Lemon Tea and Carribean Cooler left, neither of which I am thrilled about.  Maybe I'll have a protein bar today instead.  Wait.  I don't think I have one in my purse.  Gah.
D - something with ground beef.  I have it thawed.  Ooh, I also have a head of cabbage to use up.  Maybe some sweet and sour cabbage and ground beef.  No real recipe.  I make it up and it's different every time!
s - maybe a nsa fudge bar if needed.

Today's dos:

A 3 mile run at the gym, followed by whatever other machine I feel like doing.  Hubby is talking about doing the Run For Your Lives 5k in Austin in December.  It's a 5k obstacle course where you are chased by Zombies.  If you lose all 3 health flags and cross the finish line with none left (they have "health packs" along the route) then you do not survive.  You become a Zombie and I *think* (though it's not clear in the wording) that once you cross the finish line you can go back out on the route as a Zombie to take other people's flags.  Sounds fun, but I'm iffy about it.  I don't know if I can run fast enough to not turn into a Zombie!

Thank you all for your kind words. She has been and continues to be so strong and positive. I know at this point that is becoming incredibly difficult, but her spirit is amazing.

Training again 0800-1630. Then I am going to "Body Shop" - endurance lifting class. THEN I am going to get my bike!!  WOOT!

B1- mint cookie made w/ water
B2 - tomato slice, hebrew national 97% ff hot dog on a deli flat
S - click w/ skim milk
L - taco casserole, peppers, strawberries
S - quest
S - (pregym) 1/2 deli flat w/ 1/2 TBS peanut butter
   - post - other half
D / S - tuna fish, tomato slices or .... meatloaf??

  No turkey bacon tortilla today unless I get to the store - I carried the box of bacon from my folks house to mine and sat it down last night and dang little Frank-enstein dog ate it all  :(

I'm sorry at your misfortune but that made me laugh out loud!

 B - bagel thin with butter
L - ham rollups with mustard. tomato slices.
S - iced coffee protein shake
D - meatballs with ricotta
S - crackers, fresh mozzarella, grape tomatoes
before bed - tbsp pb

1209 cals, 81 protein

and have enough cals to get something at starbucks for marriage equality day.

later i'm either going to the gym or walking around shopping with a friend. depends on if i actually hear from him or not.