What are you eating/doing today? HUMP DAY!

 I am sort of pumped. Well pumped but warned.

PAUL - I officially had a Paul C. "push through the pain" moment in the gym!!! My vitamin D is forever tanking. I take a bazillion IU's of the stuff and it still limps along. My body doth not like the stuff! Anyway I was in between bottles for about a week and...you guessed it...it is plummeting. I can usually tell because I get really bad foot spasms when it's going down (I don't know what the correlation in that is, it just is).

So anyway...I was on the bike in the gym. It's a program called Expresso that lets you do different bike tours but you can also create a "ghost" of your best rid to compete against on the little tv screen. Well last time at the gym my ghost kicked my ass. I was NOT about to let that happen again. So I pedaled my heart out (and keep in mind this was about a four mile ride with inclines as high as +10 - which to Paul is prolly nothin but for me it is DEATH). And out of nowhere - WHAMMO! - a foot spasm. I stopped for a moment and damn if my ghost (it really does look like a ghost on a bike) passes me on the screen!!!

OH HELL NO! Spasm or no spasm I pedaled my ass off until I got a 13 second lead on that sucker. Somewhere in the middle of this insanity the spasm went away. Paul...I hope you are proud!

Anyhoo...eats for today. It's hot! I made hot weather food.

1. Click Frapp in a moment
2. Cold quinoa salad with summer squash, zucchini and onions in a dressing of sesame oil, rice wine vinegar and soy sauce (mmmmmmm)
3. Probably a protein iced coffee
4. Whatever the old ladies feed me
5. Greek yogurt with 1 tbsp Naturally More peanut butter, Splenda and Fiber One

I was enjoying the mild MD summer and then out of no where this crazy heatwave is crashing in on me!!! ICK! Luckily my office like to keep them temperature at morge temps so I should be okay...till I go home!

1. Click -warm to help me thaw out in the office where my fingertips are currently BLUE
2. String cheese and 3oz grilled chicken
3. watergate salad (or is i****ercress???) Pistachio/pineapple pudding...wls style ( I did a Nik and tweaked a family fave).
4. Turkey Kilbasa and saurkrat in the crockpot
5. Ohyeah RTD protein shake...just got them in the mail so we will see how that goes!! I am having a hard time finding a protein drink (other than click) that I like!! Here's hoping!

 Yay! We haz the same surgeon!!! Have we met at group? I'm terrible with names.

I havent attended the group sessions yet, I am hoping to make it to a few soon though! I love Dr Singh!

Awesome job Nik!  Sometimes I work through cramps, sometimes not.... it is definitely a victory when you don't let the cramp win.

Eats:

Too lazy to pack.... so my desk stock....

power crunch bars & nutrisystem veggie chili.

Dinner, tba.... must do grocery shopping.

Nik -you are awesome!  :)

I'm trying to break myself of a terrible carb-snacking habit.  It hits me every night once I get home.  No good.  So today, my eating WILL be on track.

Breakfast - mint cookie protein shake
Snack - banana
Lunch - chicken salad on a sandwich thin
Snack - cottage cheese & strawberries
Dinner - turkey kielbasa sauteed with garlic & spinach
Snack - vodka & limeade   tonight my friend comes over for "vodka & Teen Mom viewing night"  LOL

Wishing I was at the beach today! And I get to work and my coworker and I both have the same dress on! Funny morning already!

1. Attempted a Click Frappe- my immersion blender broke in the middle. Thank goodness for my shaker bottle!
2. Venti Iced Coffee w/ SF Vanilla and SF Hazelnut

Not sure about eats for the rest of the day.....

 I'm 146 this morning - which is NOT, by all means, a bad number - but it's not comfortable for me.  My clothes are snug.  I'm self conscious.  I want at least 10 of them gone.  I wore my warm up jacket OVER my workout clothes at the gym because what I saw in the mirror made me want to cry.

It's body image issues resurfacing all over again over the gain I'm trying unsuccessfully to get rid of.  It's 5 pounds down, 6 pounds up, 7 pounds down, 5 pounds up.  It's wreaking havoc on my head.

I was so bloated and gassy yesterday I could not fathom running.  So I walked 3 miles at a 10.0 incline on the mill.  According to the tracker it burned just as much, the intensity was just lower.

16 oz water on the drive to work.
B - greek yogurt, fruit, splenda
s - decaf, creamer, splenda
L - whatever is appropriate from what's catered (8 hour systemwide meeting today)
s - protein drink or bar
D - no idea.  Protein and veggies?

It will play with your head but I want to let you know that you aren't alone...I'm learning to embracing my 145 lbs not that it's a bad number AT ALL but I'd kill to see 135-139. But, you also workout a bit, too, so it's not all fat (and while some is muscle, running builds glycogen stores which will show up on the scale)...if I keep eating constant and start running more, I will see 5 lbs on the scale consistently.

 I think I'm actually okay with the number... I think.  It's the... distribution... maybe?... that I am having so much issue with.  I just feel so THICK through the middle.  I gain at the waist and I feel like I look so FAT when I look at myself in the mirror again lately.

Oh who knows.

I think perhaps once I have a tummy tuck (thank you 401K) and that band of extra around the middle is gone I might be more comfortable with things.