"Air it Out" Thread

 It's been a LOOOOONG time.

For those unfamiliar the "Air it Out" thread is akin to a "confession" thread. But I don't like the word confession. It connotes wrongdoing. And to me it is not only normal but necessary to make mistakes and learn from them.

Still, when we have a misstep, faux pas, hurdle or general negativity, it tends to bring us down. That's when it's time to AIR IT OUT!

The rules of the "Air it Out" thread (and this goes on the honor system obviously)

1. Be honest. You stand to gain nothing from lying cuz you're only really lying to yoursel

2. If you feel you have something SUPPORTIVE to say in response to someone's post, feel free, but please respect the fact that it takes a lot of courage to admit to doing, thinking or feeling something you are not proud of.

3. NO BASHING! Any bashing will result in the reception of the "Nik death glare" which is known to cause irritable rashes, heartburn and diarrhea. Simultaneously.

So with that...air it out! What's weighing you down?

I'm a few days past two months post-op.

ok.  confession time.  I'm not supposed to have bread, pasta, potato, or any starchy carb-packed food for 6 months.  I've been eating bread and crackers.  I'm not seriously overdoing it, but still I'm not supposed to have any.

I'm just tired of throwing up and I can eat those things and keep them down.

I can't eat any meat.  I mostly can eat soup and cheese but getting tired of it.

I snuck a slice of pepperoni off DH's pizza the other night
when he wasn't looking.  Oh...and I took the smallest sip
possible of his Sprite.

 Um...are you on purees or liquids? If not, I don't see anything wrong with a pepperoni. 

The Sprite is debatable. But keep working at your goals!

I lurves me some pepperoni, crispy.

I'm on soft foods as of today....yay!!

The Sprite was bad....but it was the smallest sip, I assure you.  And..I will keep working!

Oh I love some pepperoni chips!  Heat those slices in the micro until crispy.  Makes a good chip subsitute. 

At dinner last night I ate a salad with grilled chicken from Burger King: no croutons, no dressing, just plain salad.................BUT then.................I ate some of my husbands French Fries!  Not many, but still....do I wish I hadn't done it?  YES!  But, DAMN they were good!

I ate a cookie today. I'm super tired...stayed up way too late last night on a work project and that's got me more-than-usually bummed.

Don't really feel too bad about the cookie...I mean, I want to learn to eat normally and one cookie IS normal. But I feel bad that I gave in to the temptation (a plate of chocolate cookies put out by a work colleague) because I am tired and depressed.
Need a healthier comforter.

 It's good you recognize that.

But can I advise you to beware of creating "gauntlets." I don't think you did this time, but I do it all the time. I tell myself it's either abstain or fail. And then I cave and feel horrible. That's not the way it is! I can have a cookie if I make room for it in my plan. This is not a failure but a moderated treat. 

I still have to tell myself that out loud!