Missing Khan, fear, and a carb-fest

I am sorry :(

I am so sorry. Have you thought about taking self defense classes? I'm not talking karate (although I think that has it's benefits), but I mean the kind where you can learn to kill someone with your shoe if you need to.

This may sound silly but there was a tv show many years ago called beauty and the beast. the woman on there was attacked and took a self defense class like that so she could learn to fight. it's always stuck with me

One of the local fire departments periodically offers the RAD classes, but every time they have offered them at a time I could take them (based on my work and school schedule), they have ended up cancelling the class because enrollment was too low.  I should see when the next scheduled class offering is, though.  I will call them on Tuesday!

Lora

 I think that's a good idea!  empowerment can help confidence.  let us know how it goes!

(HUGS).. Sending you prayers and good wishes.

This too shall pass..... Don't be to hard on your self! You spread so much good daily to so many and your allowed to be human. I'm so sorry hot your loss. When your done morning then you'll relalize these carbs are just hurting you further and pls toss that cereral! Don't you empty from all that sugar?

Sending a hug your way

I am so sorry you are struggling right now. I don't have any advice, just a (((hug)))and the reminder that sometimes food is comfort and sometimes it's ok to use it - just not forever.

have you thought about putting some decorative bars on your windows? i have seen some that look very nice, but are very protective...at least on the ground floor windows....i have no idea of the cost of these...sorry to hear that you are in fear..but a resuce dog might be the way to go for now..but then you may end up keeping that dog AND getting the new puppy....just a thought to keep in mind...the motion lights are a great idea...
praying for you to have peace of mind
debby

I know the feeling having a big dog brings.
When I taught self-defense classes, we told people to put walking shoes, a leash and a big bowl of water on their front porch (and / or back). Since you have your Scottie, you can make a big show of the dog food bag in the garbage.

I hope you can fight through the pain and take care of yourself. You deserve good things.

I am sorry I must have missed your post when you mentioned losing your dog.  Prior to yestarday, I hadnt been on OH in about 3 or 4 weeks.  I am so sorry.  I know I havent had a dog since I have been a teenager but I know each time one died, it was terrible.  I would love to have on now but I am in a building that doesnt allow them.

I agree a self defense, karate, tae kwon do are all great options for you to build self confidense.

You mentioned you have an alarm but it isnt monitored by ADT - arent there other alarm companies in your area that are monitored by the police???  I know our house had a burgular alarm and if anyone tried to break in, the police would be there in minutes - they also would call on the phone and if the alarm went off, they would call to make sure we didnt set it off by mistake, if we couldnt give the proper password - they immediately sent out several squad cars to check on the house.  Once I was so embarrased, I was at my parents and I didn't know they had changed the password and I stopped over one night when they werent home and figured I would wait to suprise them - well I suprised them all right with police cars and sirens.  they learned never to change the alarm code again without telling me.  there are tons of alarm companies hooked up to local police departments.

I also wouldnt get too upset about the carbfest - you dont do it all the time.  You were very upset.  If you did it everyday, then that would be cause to think you were going back to old times but this was because of a terrible time and you needed it.  I personally dont think there was a need for someone to ask why you even had a box of cheese it's in the house??? what is wrong with a few cheese crackers  once in awhile or every day??? 1/2 peanut butter and jelly sandwich - there certainly wasnt anything wrong with that.  My NUT had told me of the snack foods that pretzels are one of the best - I sometimes get Newman's High Protein Pretzel's - they have like 6 or 7 grams of protein per serving.

So, just do the best you can and hang in there.  I do hope you can get a new puppy soon.