What AREN'T you eating today?

I'm not eating a big slab of homemade bread slathered thick with real mayonnaise topped with wonderfully aged vermont cheddar cheese. Nor am I consuming a non-snack size bag of fritos with guacamole, and a huge glass of sweet tea. And I'm definitely not filling the space remaining (because there was always room for more) with Shane's of Maine thick and rich Moose trac**** cream dripping with chocolate sauce and chopped peanuts. Yep, not having any of that tonight!

I actually stood in my front toom and yelled at DH how much I miss this stuff, because of some insane emotional upheaval at our house.

Breakfast : two egg McMuffin sandwiches or a really big maple long John with cream filling. Diet Pepsi.. Like my caffeine cold and carbonated mostly. Maybe a big bagel with half an inch of cream cheese on it.

Snack: some high calorie coffee drink, most often cold and a big hunk (read half a loaf) of banana bread with nutella.

Lunch: footlong sub or some extra large value meal. Chipoltle burrito, with chips and guacamole.

Afternoon: candy or a dessert of some kind. Office cafeteria sells killer brownies and huge cookies. Or perhaps a made dash to the cupcake shop for a specialty cupcake... Or two.

Dinner: pizza, a whole med sized meat lovers from pizza hut. Or perhaps 4 or 5 plates at the buffet of choice.

Bedtime snack: ice cream. Or some other snack item I bought at the store while buying thing the family really needs and eating it in the car on the ride home, and burying the evidence in the trash. This snack could also include another fast food value meal.

It's scary what i used to put in my body. It's also scary that the emotionally triggered cravings are still there. I am able to push them aside 90% of the time or work my way through them. But the triggers are still there.

 This thread is like Letters to Penthouse. Not that I know firsthand what those are. But I feel strangely agitated and nervous reading these posts. Could be I'm a leeetle bit shaky in my recovery. 

I'm not eating a stack of pancakes at iHop, drowned in butter pecan syrup.

I'm not eating TWO Whoppers from Burger King, just because they were on sale 2/$2.

I'm not eating a footlong tuna sub with provolone from Subway. And three M&M cookies.

I'm not eating entire pints of Ben & Jerry's.

On the flip side, I'm also not going entire days drinking nothing but diet Dr. Pepper. And I'm not spending entire days without eating until I get so hungry, I binge. I'm taking care of myself and paying attention to my own place on my priority list.

But to be very honest, I don't miss any of it. There has been nothing yet that I pine for or feel sad about. I haven't had many junk cravings, and I am really happy with my greek yogurt and lentil salad. Part of it could be because, in between binges, I always loved healthy food. So it hasn't been that huge an adjustment. But this comfort I feel post-op has really cemented my belief that I am not a food addict, nor do I eat emotionally. I think, really, my eyes were just huge, and I managed to stuff a ton of stuff into my gob because I could, and because I was HUNGRY. Going a day without eating wreaks havoc on the body.

 I've kind of gone lable carzy on everything. . . yes I pay attention to all the calories, sugars, cars, and protain. Probably the worst think I am eating now is the occasional Sweet Bunny No Sugar Added Ice Cream Bars. Their a great treat and have 100 cals + 2g of suger so not that bad. 

As far as my wors pre op eating days . . . halo McDonalds, Taco Bell, and Wendys LOL. But this is the NEW me and now its time to say goodbye. Never again :o)

 yikes i was thinking about this tday when i was at arbys... i had to take a lady i work for there and i got the meat only from a roast beef since i dont do bread. it was a wierd feeling i used to eat so much... a typical day would be... (this is so hard for me to admit)

B- 4 or 5 slices white bread toasted with butter, a couple bowls of cereal, 3 or 4 breakfast sandwiches from mcdonalds OR 3 eggs with loads of cheese and bacon

L- ( i really never ate at home) 2 mcdonalds hamburgers & a 10 pc mcnuggets w fries and a orange drink, double whopper & fries from BK, way to much from wendys, culvers, at least 20$ worth of taco bell, the big montana w curly fries from arbys, or the arbys 5 reg roast beefs for 5 and yes i ate them all w curly fries and soda tooo *omg i want to puke admitting this*

S- never really set specific times to eat or anything just kinda ate all day, so whatever was laying around im a bored/stress eater so i was constantly stuffing my face, cookies crackers chips (oh i could eat an entire bag of dill pickle chips)

D- more fast food and the rare times i ate at home it again was always a lot. towards the end (before i started my pre op diet* i was eating 2 baked potatos loaded with raw beef cheese sour cream taco sauce butter garlic salt omg it was amazing but sooooo unhealthy and that was usually my like 11pm snack thing

now the only fast food i eat is the beef from a arbys sandwich or a pintos and cheese from taco bell... i dont do bread pasta rice potatos etc... i severly limit my fats and sodium and i dont even miss the poison :D

just to see the other day i actually put one of these days into myfitnesspal just too see the calories and it was like 4000... i cant believe i did that to myself. and let myself get that bad. and its still hard for me now i always just want to eat and im struggling with it and it is incredible the difference between now and then and i will NEVER to go back to this. im gunna go throw up from this now, so horrible :(

 o yah and energy drinks like monsters and red bull... i used to drink like 3-6 cans of that crap a day... talk about sugars... holy moly

I'm not eating anything with high fat or high sugar today. I'll admit I do from time to time but my boyfriend is coming to visit me tonight for the weekend and I do not want to risk any tummy issues

Laura

Can I just say how amazing it is to read through all these posts? It's amazing, isn't it?

Because when we were all just "dieting" in the past, we all still wanted this stuff, right? Wouldn't you look forward to your cheat days? Wouldn't you have that "emergency stash" somewhere in the house for when the cravings would get so bad you couldn't take it? Wouldn't you secretly want to hit the drive through after you got finished at the gym (assuming you even wnet to the gym at all)?

And now look at us. We don't even want that garbage anymore. And we're disgusted by the fact that we used to eat it.

What an incredible tool this is. It truly is lifechanging.

I'll admit, I still eat garbage from time to time, but not ALL the time like I used to