Right this very moment I want to...

Cleopatra_Nik
on 4/23/12 4:19 am - Baltimore, MD

Breathe
Laugh
Cry
Scream
Kick something
Punch someone
Move on
Go back
Rewrite
Edit
Be NORMAL

I think my head is genuinely going to explode. Really. I am NOT in a good mental headspace these days. It’s like I have lost my calibration. Yes, yes, I know I’ve been through a lot. I had been through a lot before. And I finally, finally, FINALLY got my footing back and...

DAMMIT!

I don’t like being sad. I don’t like feeling lost. I don’t like not being on top of things. I don’t like feeling scared.

I need…something. But I don’t know what that something is.

And right this very moment I needed to let that out...so thank you all for listening.

(Breathing...)

RNY Gastric Bypass 1-8-08 350/327/200 (HW/SW/CW). I spend most of my time playing with my food over at Bariatric Foodie - check me out!

JUSTJUNQUIES
on 4/23/12 4:22 am - Citrus Heights, CA

RNY on 04/04/12

HUGS

Donna Q. --5'8" -60 years old
Band 2005
hw320 sw276 lw with band 195 gw 160-180?
Bypass 4/4/2012
pre sw 258 lw RNY 162 cw 203

Ladytazz
on 4/23/12 4:30 am

You haven't been through a lot. You are going through a lot. A lot of changes. Please be gentle with yourself. The grieving process is hard and long, no matter how much we want to rush through it. And you have so many things on your plate. Take care of yourself however you can.

WLS 10/28/2002 Revision 7/23/2010

High Weight (2002) 240 Revision Weight (2010) 220 Current Weight 115.

Laura in Texas
on 4/23/12 4:31 am

RNY on 09/17/08

One hour or even one minute at a time. When my dad died, I completely fell apart. What you are feeling IS normal.

Prioritize what has to get done and make a list. Get done what you can. Hang in there!!

Laura

Laura in Texas

53 years old; 5'7" tall; HW: 339 (BMI=53); GW: 140 CW: 170 (BMI=27)

RNY: 09-17-08 Dr. Garth Davis

brachioplasty: 12-18-09 Dr. Wainwright; lbl/bl: 06-28-11 Dr. LoMonaco

"May your choices reflect your hopes and not your fears."

happy_baker
on 4/23/12 4:32 am

RNY on 02/15/12

I know the feeling. I don't like feeling like I'm not completely in control of myself or my environment. (that's partly why I don't drink)
It's a really vulnerable position to be in, and you don't strike me as a woman who can be comfortable feeling vulnerable.

I would imagine you're still deep in the grieving process. That's a really tough balance--trying to deal with such deep, turbulant emotions AND still trying to run your life and those of your divas. You've got a lot on your plate, and I wouldn't expect anyone to have their stuff together with all that going on.

Take some time for you. Take some time to breathe and laugh and cry and scream and kick something if you have to. Don't punch anyone though. People frown on that. But maybe an hour of kicboxing at your gym might be a good outlet?

Whatever it is you need, I hope you find it. And I hope your heart and soul can find some peace.

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Paul C.
on 4/23/12 4:35 am - Cumming, GA

RNY on 07/16/10

" I need…something. But I don’t know what that something is. "

Peanutbutter and a good run?

Paul C.
First 5K 9/27/20 46:32 - 11 weeks post op (PR 28:55 8/15/11)
First 10K 7/04/2011 1:03 First 15K 9/18/2011 1:37
First Half Marathon 10/02/2011 2:27:44 (PR 2:24:35)
First Half Ironman 9/30/12 7:32:04

Cleopatra_Nik
on 4/23/12 4:37 am - Baltimore, MD

RNY on 01/08/08

No PB!

But I have been back to running the last couple of weeks. It's about the only time I don't think about her death (cuz I am trying to avoid mine from falling or my lung falling out or something).

Saturday I did 3 miles straight through before I noticed I couldn't breathe anymore.

RNY Gastric Bypass 1-8-08 350/327/200 (HW/SW/CW). I spend most of my time playing with my food over at Bariatric Foodie - check me out!

Cherokeesage
on 4/23/12 4:35 am

RNY on 02/24/12

BIG hugs and prayers from me to you Dear Heart.

Banded Oct 2008: 290
RNY Feb 2012:        245
Dr's set goal:    170 reached Oct 11, 2012
My goal:                     160 reached Dec 1, 2012
Today :                     145-150

I am half the person I was in 2008.