Random Poll o' the Week: When I get to goal I'm gonna...???
RNY Gastric Bypass 1-8-08 350/327/200 (HW/SW/CW). I spend most of my time playing with my food over at Bariatric Foodie - check me out!
But the mental aspect of setting such a goal -- more like a reward -- I feel like
a) if I set a reward it means I believe in myself that I'll make my goal and earn the reward
b) If I set a reward and don't meet the goal I feel like a failure
So I lean towards not disappointing myself and just don't set the goal. Which of course means I DON'T believe in myself enough to make the goal and work towards it.
(Jan's going to yell at me for this post)
Losing anymore weight is going to take a great deal of committment and sacrifice. Maintaining where I am requires about the amount of effort and focus that I've managed to put out for the past 18 months. My lowest weight is 177. I'm currently 182. I got this burst of motivation mid-January and lost 5lbs from 187. I think I can do better and maybe I just set some lofty reward that I wouldn't splurge on normally anyway. One of those big dreams.. like going on another cruise with my hubby.
I'm not sure if there's a number that is the goal.. I just don't want to be squishy anymore.
At 172 I was toned. I was muscular. My arms were rock hard (when you felt around the hanging skin, lol). And I was dissatisfied. I wanted to be 160 and that's all I knew about. Well...here I am at 200, wishing I could get 172 back. I am going to work at it!
Until then, I have a feeling this feeeling is perpetual. That is to say if I got up to 215 I'd reminisce on how nice it was to just be 200. So I'm trying to break the cycle!
RNY Gastric Bypass 1-8-08 350/327/200 (HW/SW/CW). I spend most of my time playing with my food over at Bariatric Foodie - check me out!
^^ This!
This has been my main problem my whole life. I do not want to try and fail, so I just do not try.
I've lost 25 lbs of my "regain" and I'd like to lose about another 10. But even if I work my butt off and reach that goal, I know I will still be unsatisfied with myself. Because my tummy will still be squishy and saggy, and my boobs will be nonexistant and saggy. So I've almost given up trying to reach the arbitrary numerical "goal" I set for myself. I swear, I'm a piece of work!
My biggest, ultimate goal (my #1 NSV I dared to hope for) was to ride a horse again. I bought one and ride him all the time. Now it's just all bonus. Of course I would LOVE to lose lots more weight and get to or below goal.... but I choose live life as it comes to me and thus far I am loving it.
COURAGE TO START, STRENGTH TO ENDURE, RESOLVE TO FINISH
HW 353 SW 317 Original GW 180 Current Wt 170
First 5k 59:18; 5k PR 32:06; 1st 10k 1:20:27; PR 1:08:36
1st Half Marathon 2:48
Pensacola Double Bridge Run 15k- 1:47:34
Three Sprint Triathlons
Also, my Mom, who passed away at 39, said that she wanted to go to a tropical island... and no matter what she looked like.... have a drink at the beach in a bikini! In 2 weeks, I'll be on a tropical island -- I have ordered the bikini. Saggy & stretch marked, I have to go toast Mom!
HW-298 SW-251 Loss/Month post RNY(1)-23.5,(2)-23.3,(3)-9.9,(4)-10.6,(5)-8.9,(6)-7.7,(7)-4.2,(8)-7.5,(9)-1.7,(10)-10.8*first goal reached*,(11)-6,(12)-1.3,(13)-0.3,(14)+2.9-*changed scales that weigh 2lbs heavier*,(15)-0.3(16)-4.7(17),+5.8(18)-1.5,(19)+4.4,(20)-+4,(21)-1.2,(22)+3.5,(23)
Hike any trail I so desire, regardless of the level of difficulty/number of miles-check!
Run-check!
Do P90X entirely-check! and P90X+ and now P90X2-check and check!
Zip line-
Horseback riding (scared of horses-weight loss hasn't cured that, but I'm still gonna do it)-
Alaskan land/cruise tour-booked-September 2012!
Wear high heels again-check many times over!
Shop in any store I want-check!
Live every day to the fullest and never take one breath for granted! check and check!!
