I'm not doing very well...

I'm so sorry to hear this, Kelly! I have depression too but it's currently being treated effectively with medication and therapy. It's awful that you are struggling like this. I will say a prayer for you! Hang in there!

 I am so sorry you're going through this. I don't have any words of wisdom, but I'm sending you a hug and will keep you in my prayers. I'm new to this forum, but I just want to say that I think it's wonderful that you do so much to help everyone here.  You are an inspiration. I hope things get better soon. 

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So sorry that you are going through this and nothing is really helping this time. Like everyone else, I'm sending hugs and prayers your way. You do so much for so many of us, you are very special and I'm glad you decided to share that you are having such a hard time. Sometimes, just getting it out there helps.
I hope that you find relief soon!

Hi Kelly,

I just want you to know that you're in my thoughts. In the past, I've been so enveloped by the darkness, that I've been just a few steps away from giving up on more then one occasion. I know how painful depression can be, but I believe there is hope for you. Pretending everything is okay is exhausting, so save that energy because you need it right now. Just do the best you can for the time being. I hope that knowing how many people here care about you, including myself,  and how many of us find brightness in your presence helps to light your path until you can step out in the sunshine again. If there is anything I can do, please let me know.

Kat

 I really don't know much about depression. I will say that isn't it amazing that you are able to help thousands of people on here with your posts. Through your depression you are still able to share hope and information and support. Amazing really.
I have no advice or suggestions.
I think you are so cool  and I hope you can feel better.
Deb

I just did the only thing I know to do to try to help.  I prayed for you.

Do you notice it worse in the winter? My daughter is bi polar and she suffers so much worse when she isn't in the sunlight. You have been so helpful to me and my journey I sure wished I did have the magic answer for you. Maybe a nice mini vacation for a change in scenery? I know when your tired and feel overwhelmed thats pretty far from dealing with day to day. I wish you good health and much happiness.

You are a kind hearted, very intelligent woman and I have appreciated your insight many times.  I suffer from PTSD and depression/anxiety and understand how overwhelming this can be.  Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers that your cloud will lift and let the sun shine through... Lisa

 Kelly,
     I am truly sorry that you have struggled for so long with these issues. You have been, and continue to be,  a tremendous help and support to so many on this board.

You say you don't know what you are looking for here, but just writing it down is sometimes very cathartic for us. You deserve some relief, and I hope things look up for you in your future. You are such a good person. :D

Hey Kelly - I know you'be been dealing with this for years but have you ever been to a neurologist and had any type of brain scans or tests done to rule out any sort of tumors?  I've heard that some people with untreatable depression were diagnosed with benign tumors pressing on certain areas of the brain causing depression.  It's far fetched but might be worth looking into?

Best of luck to you (((hugs)))!!