"Air it Out" Thread
Just cuz we haven't had one in a while!
I say "air it out" becuase I am not fond of the term "confessions." It sort of denotes that you've "sinned" and since we are changing our lifestyles and NOT going on a temporary diet we have to be allowed to make mistakes and have bad days, right?
Still, those bad days, mistakes, stinkin' thinkin' and whatever other kind of negativity that plagues you...it can hold you back. So AIR IT OUT!
Whatever negativity that's in you threatening to mess you up, release it here. NO JUDGMENT!!!
What's on YOUR mind?
I say "air it out" becuase I am not fond of the term "confessions." It sort of denotes that you've "sinned" and since we are changing our lifestyles and NOT going on a temporary diet we have to be allowed to make mistakes and have bad days, right?
Still, those bad days, mistakes, stinkin' thinkin' and whatever other kind of negativity that plagues you...it can hold you back. So AIR IT OUT!
Whatever negativity that's in you threatening to mess you up, release it here. NO JUDGMENT!!!
What's on YOUR mind?
RNY Gastric Bypass 1-8-08 350/327/200 (HW/SW/CW). I spend most of my time playing with my food over at Bariatric Foodie - check me out!
My "air it out" issue right now is lack of energy and feeling guilty about not doing more than I am. There's housework and exercise that I need to do but I'd rather sleep.
I went back to work full time at 3 weeks post-op so it's not like I'm laying around the house all day, but that's all I seem to do on evenings and weekends. I've been doing the minimum to keep the house habitable but I can't seem to keep up with things like vacuuming and laundry. I manage to get on the treadmill about once or twice a week is all. I just feel like I should be doing more by now (5 weeks out), and my home and family are being neglected!
I went back to work full time at 3 weeks post-op so it's not like I'm laying around the house all day, but that's all I seem to do on evenings and weekends. I've been doing the minimum to keep the house habitable but I can't seem to keep up with things like vacuuming and laundry. I manage to get on the treadmill about once or twice a week is all. I just feel like I should be doing more by now (5 weeks out), and my home and family are being neglected!
HW 270 / SW 256 / CW 212
At five weeks out, I was still a ZOMBIE!!! Go easy on yourself. You had major surgery and it takes time to recover and time for your body to get used to functioning on so few calories.
HUGS! And I hope you get your mojo back soon!
HUGS! And I hope you get your mojo back soon!
RNY Gastric Bypass 1-8-08 350/327/200 (HW/SW/CW). I spend most of my time playing with my food over at Bariatric Foodie - check me out!
Sounds very similar to what I went thru. There were times when it was almost too much to even shower, so I understand how frustrating it can be. Make sure your B12 levels are good going forward but it is totally normal to be wiped-out! Give yourself time & space to rest; you'll be back to normal soon!
First ultra: Stone Mill 50 miler 11/15/14 13:44:38, First Full Marathon: Marine Corps 10/27/13 4:57:11, Half Marathon PR 2:04:43 at Shamrock VA Beach Half-Marathon, 12/2/12 First Half-Marathon 2:32:47, 5K PR Run Under the Lights 5K 27:23 on 11/23/13, 10K PR 52:53 Pike's Peek 10K 4/21/13, (1st timed run) Accumen 8K 51:09 10/14/12.
My confession/frustration/air it out is this: Why did I have to choose oat bran sesame sticks at the new Fresh Market? They are officially my weakness, sit poorly in my pouch, and frankly are probably more carbs than I should be snacking on. Well, ate them all & evidence is gone so won't be doing that again..... for a while anyway.
First ultra: Stone Mill 50 miler 11/15/14 13:44:38, First Full Marathon: Marine Corps 10/27/13 4:57:11, Half Marathon PR 2:04:43 at Shamrock VA Beach Half-Marathon, 12/2/12 First Half-Marathon 2:32:47, 5K PR Run Under the Lights 5K 27:23 on 11/23/13, 10K PR 52:53 Pike's Peek 10K 4/21/13, (1st timed run) Accumen 8K 51:09 10/14/12.
The big negativity in me lately has been the fact that I'm sort of at a pivotal point in my life. I love my job. LOVE it. Love what I do. But I also know that I should have quit five years ago. I had teh RNY to try to preserve my voice from destruction from GERD but the damage was done. I lose my voice on average 5 times a day. As in zero sound. Usually it only lasts a short time, but I keep worrying that one of these days it won't come back. In the thread about good and bad medical experiences I didn't add my BAD experience with the ear, nose, and throat doc, but he was an ass and the other E,N, T docs are much further away, and the conclusion of "stop talking for a living" wasn't very helpful.
I had thought I was on track for some mild little promotions in my ilttle teaching universe, but when the former department head retired, I was passed over for the position in favor of a rank outsider, and then when she quit suddenly, I was passed over again for a teacher who has less experience teaching than EVERY teacher in the math department save one. I feel worthless, and I sometimes get into this mind set that I'm not worthwhile. For someone who normally has a more healthy than not self-esteem, this is a difficult mental place to be. I don't like how it feels to feel as if I am not worthwhile particularly because I know I am.
Add to that the fact that I've gained a little bit of weight and I can't seem to figure out how to keep the RH at bay on fewer calories (and you know I don't really indulge in many calories!) and I'm feeling overall like a total failure. If we weren't enslaved to our house, owing twice as much as it is worth (but the lawsuit that Bank Of America lost out on might rectify that).... we can't just sell our house and move somewhere better... not unless we're willing to wak away from our loan, our house, and our jobs. With hubby 56 he's getting up there in years to be trying to get another job, even if he is a science teacher.
I know I can do a lot, and I get miraculous results year after year with my students, but with the new administration at my high school being the absolute poster child for bully behavior, I feel unwelcome, unwanted, and unable to do my job properly. I've never been more discontented with my job, nor really thought of it as a job until this year. I'm tired and I wonder if this is really what I want out of my life. Or should I take a risk and try to sell myself in curriculum development and go to work for a large educational for-profit institution. Is this what life is all about I wonder, and I haven't found my answers.
I had thought I was on track for some mild little promotions in my ilttle teaching universe, but when the former department head retired, I was passed over for the position in favor of a rank outsider, and then when she quit suddenly, I was passed over again for a teacher who has less experience teaching than EVERY teacher in the math department save one. I feel worthless, and I sometimes get into this mind set that I'm not worthwhile. For someone who normally has a more healthy than not self-esteem, this is a difficult mental place to be. I don't like how it feels to feel as if I am not worthwhile particularly because I know I am.
Add to that the fact that I've gained a little bit of weight and I can't seem to figure out how to keep the RH at bay on fewer calories (and you know I don't really indulge in many calories!) and I'm feeling overall like a total failure. If we weren't enslaved to our house, owing twice as much as it is worth (but the lawsuit that Bank Of America lost out on might rectify that).... we can't just sell our house and move somewhere better... not unless we're willing to wak away from our loan, our house, and our jobs. With hubby 56 he's getting up there in years to be trying to get another job, even if he is a science teacher.
I know I can do a lot, and I get miraculous results year after year with my students, but with the new administration at my high school being the absolute poster child for bully behavior, I feel unwelcome, unwanted, and unable to do my job properly. I've never been more discontented with my job, nor really thought of it as a job until this year. I'm tired and I wonder if this is really what I want out of my life. Or should I take a risk and try to sell myself in curriculum development and go to work for a large educational for-profit institution. Is this what life is all about I wonder, and I haven't found my answers.
~Lady Lithia~ 200 lbs lost!
March 9, 2011 - Coccygectomy!
I chased my dreams, and my dreams, they caught me!
I know many teachers who are extremely frustrated with their jobs. The accountability and testing has really sucked the joy out of teaching. Standardized testing has even come to higher ed now. Our freshman and juniors will be tested every spring, to show the "value added" by their educational experiences at the university. The administration feels the pressure but instead of being the leaders they could be in this tough situation, they just pass the pressure along to their faculty and everyone is stressed.
It never hurts to think about changing jobs and pursue opportunities that arise. In the end you can always decide not to make the move, but if you don't at least find out what's out there you'll never know what might be available.
It never hurts to think about changing jobs and pursue opportunities that arise. In the end you can always decide not to make the move, but if you don't at least find out what's out there you'll never know what might be available.
HW 270 / SW 256 / CW 212
I guess my musty air would be that on Friday night I had my sister sneak in a sweet potato for my dinner so I didn't have to eat nasty hospital food (granted I only took 3 bites) and on Saturday the I was so tired of how long everything took to get me discharged that after 30 minutes of waiting for my wheelchair transport (hospital rules) I just walked out lol.
.oOo.oOo.oOo.oOo.Miranda.oOo.oOo.oOo.oOo.
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